Ugh,
We've all been on this same road
Yet, in a different speed
What messes me up most is what people chase after...
It seems they confuse what they want from what they need
I wonder at times, "is ignorance a disease?"
If you had it all would you be pleased?
Cross your fingers and drop to your knees
Speak to the lord and let your mind find peace.

(Hook)

Ugh, I've used this pen to write my untold story
Of the pain that came before the fortune
Of the mistakes that came before the glory
Those who now want attention that used to walk away and ignore me.
Ha...funny how things change
When you were young, heart was deranged
My mother classified me as insane
I was hiding behind my father's, God givin' name
Which took me to the top
Pressured never killed me, the injection never made me stop
Addict in his mind as its success he craves to find
Attempting to give his high school love his dark heart that resides inside (echoes)
Now I'm facing 25...
I haven't ever felt this alive

(Hook)

This is the verse that's ready to tell all
About my weak moments and drive that stalled
Wonder why she still hasn't called...
I've grown so much and dropped my flaws
I know you can change but you always carry
That inner monster, that's personally scary.
I hope I'm forgivin by my family and friends
I know time allows all to amend
Well, not all of my old friends
Some I wish the best for but otherwise could careless
Penny for my thoughts, I can't Payless
But you can walk in my shoes and obtain my daily stress
I wanna feel what the world feels
Hatred eyes and imperfection appeal
I'm akward as f&@k, so I keep my lips sealed
A starving artist hungry for a deal.
I've asked for prayer to obtain what It is that I want
For that I apologize God
The point I'm making is we need to overcome negativity, madness and greed
Let's focus on the beautiful, the wonderful, the idea of belief.

One more thing...

Watch the angel that sings,
Find your tranquil spot in your mind where faith clings and how good positivity brings
This world is full of flowers that blossomed hate.
I want ya to show the world
How much one gracious action
truly creates.

"Be the change you want to create"

my goal for 2015 is simple:
to love myself.
embrace the pale skin draped over my hallow bones
and bring new life to the blood coursing through my veins.
to no longer let the society that has raised me
interfere with my view of myself.
i am personified to be a withered rose,
losing its petals with each supposed loss of myself.
i am critiqued daily with the held ideology of some morons
who feed the public mediocrity in  the hopes of creating fear among  the public.
no longer will i claw at my skin like a demon trying to escape in hopes of alerting my appearance into something that is not recognizable,
in the desperate plea that i will no longer fear passing by a mirror and having to face my reflection.
i should not be considered cocky  when i say that i love myself
i am a beautiful, short, chubby young girl with big,bright brown eyes that will now hold a plethora of emotions and not just misery and sorrow
i shouldnt be afraid to share my ideas with the world  
im  going to take the world head on
and share my concepts and ideas with overflowing passion that some have labeled  a blessing and others mock as a curse.
2015 will be the same as 2014
with new and revised commitments
ones that cannot be susitained and are tossed aside in the coming of a week
although i dont belive my goal will be hard to come by
i love myself already
but i have just been taught to shelter it with the concept of modesty
no longer will i live by the warped standards of three idiot boys
i wont entertain your simple mind appease your narrow minded standards.
i will be embrace the inner goddess that i am
because i love myself.

WAY OF LIFE
At times far from sprinkled streets
Left with tedious talk
Far away from retreats
All alone in the fields I walk!

In the scuttle of strife
I lost the beauty of my word
Not able to spit out myself
My way of life became absurd!!

Tempests of ideas propel my mind
But I want to feel the odor of limitless wind
Closing my eyes and making me relax
With deep breaths not even a single impediment I remind!!!
                                                                                                                        
                                                                                                                               “Deep” words by Harsh Sandhu