I outfitted my worn-out clothes
Then in the far mirror, I see myself
I look behind the old me
Look pass the masked he wears,
Staring…
After what seems like a few seconds,
I finally asked him;
“Have I neglected you?”
He didn’t answer…
A single tear fell in his left eye
And then I understood…
“I am sorry, I let you stay behind
masked for too long
muffled you for quite some time.
We all know society is cruel place to be.
We need to be strong and I needed to be stronger.
It was for our sake.
But then it was just me being a coward
- afraid to faced reality.
Now look at us, we’re both crying for the decisions
we’ve made long ago. It was not your fault,
I’m to blame with all of this crap.
I made you do it, I convinced you with my
Fears. And I am truly sorry for that.”
I break down into sobs. He simply hugs me, not saying anything.
Then he fades away.
I dried away the tears I shed
And found something,
a feeling I never knew he give.
I found forgiveness.
I was able to forgive myself
From the things I did.
To stay past the past mistake,
To face the new kinda old me…
Then I realized;
It is important to forgive yourself
To be able to move forward.
written 09/27/2014
*© Pax
Taken from the depths of my soul. Very raw. An emotional pondering.
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