hanggang sa muli,

sa muli kong pagtanaw.
sa muli kong pag aabang.
ng mga ngiti,
ng mga paghawi ng buhok.
sa muling makakasabay ka.

kung kelan,
hindi ko alam,
sa ngayon,

mag abang na lang ako
sa mga minutong dadaan ka
sa mga mata kong,
ikaw lang ang hinahanap
wala ng iba.

As the growing world unraveled
And I began the dismal ascension of maturity
I stumbled out the  fog of childhood
And there you were:

Advice to head and educate
A Battlecry and a Mandate.

Faith; in things to happen yet
Strength in knowledge- hope in regret;

Stories expressing casually:
Evils impartiality. and
tales of golden fantasies

How no drug is ever stronger than me.

These few phrases I imagine, you see
Into dreams only I can keep.
from start until the seventh day
Waking hour's dreamless sleep.

Oh how you cushion the destruction-
the entrancement of seduction
to paint to play to grow to teach
Expression extending as I reach.

Never budging
Reinforced
Constructed to hold your burdens
Yet here at my core
You’ll only see cracks
Strong and sturdy
Rebar and cement
Movement imminent
Can you feel the vibrations
The trembling
Of me growing weaker
But I am the foundation
Left in ruin rubble
From years of neglect
You so carelessly overlooked

our disconnect caused me not to write for awhile
I wonder if I had more feelings for you then I intended to
pretending that everything was cool
When deep inside I really wanted you
one day without talking seemed like an eternity
but soon those days turned into weeks, now it's been months.
What did I miss?
what did I not see?
the title waves
sent you on your way
now Im lost at sea.
you knew what it was from the beginning but I didn't
finding myself researching our Zodiac signs said it would be different.
Ignored the Red Flags
only because I thought you and I were more.
Action speak louder than words
I NEEDED those words
those words flowing from your lips, that I once kissed then tell you I wanted more.
Never been the one to hold back my emotions
Ive done that before , that **** ended in commotion
Reminding myself its okay to be vulnerable
What is there to lose?
now this writing is more comfortable.