No, I never loved you
But you persisted anyway
You thought with blind uncertainty that you could have me
You poured your soul out to me with every motion and every kiss
But it was nothing to me but a good time

I don't regret not feeling regret
The truth is I won't ever return your affection
I only question myself

*Why do I feel so good about breaking your heart?

Young, slender, soft and small,
Twigs stretching from thy palm,
Rings of shining dew at morning’s call
Clashing beautifully against my arm.

An ode to the thin spindles of affection
Tightly tangling around my heart’s string,
Sharply strummed with sleepy, dainty precision
Playing a song that only dreams could once sing.

A medley of feelings: peaking elation
And troughs deep enough for hot brews,
Between branches and amidst conversation
It seems my mind and heart can find truce.

It is said flowers that bloom tears to eye
Should be left to grow as beauty unpicked,
I must agree to admire and assure I am nearby,
To offer my service to such that has me rooted, fixed.

I don't smoke he says
As the lit cigarette dangles from between his lips

I'll never lie to you he promises
With finger crossed behind his back

I love you drifts from his mouth
Before he goes home to his girlfriend

A walking contradictory
A breathing heartbreaker

The only one
Who truly understand who I am

And he is a walking contradictory

s.j.d

I picked you up
        when she locked you out.

For once I thought
         we were so high in love,
         I was your princess
         and you were my prince.
        
But all of a sudden,
        it came to my senses
        that you were still not over
        with a love within you
        that was long ago existed.

I was left with no choice
        but to endure the pain
        because a love like that
        is something I couldn't
        compete with.

And now, you locked me out
        I'm nowhere to be picked in.

He brushes lips of chapped silver
against her eager waiting ears
words dipped in warm honey gold
weave through the still morning air into
pretty distractions and buttercup dreams

She’s falling falling f a l l i n g
into those alluring violet eyes
they make for the perfect Solemn and
Earnest when he wants them to be
spinning seductive stardusted half-promises

The gossamer sunlight glints off
his aquamarine hair, and it’s like
like winter’s breath crystallized on the ends
of those beautiful blue strands;
they snare her in their breathtaking tangles

She’s almost asking to be bound
so he complies with those
clever ivory fingers on smooth piano keys
as rich chocolate swirls of his music enfold,
intoxicating-saccharine like whisky truffles

As he reaches out to draw her close,
the world soars in a myriad of colours.

You are sweet and passionate
But you still lack a brain
Because my heart is desolate
Of my existence you are now the bane

I truly believe you are stupid
You admit your lack of wit
Like dead meat you are truly putrid
And make me want to *****

So I refuse to be your paramour
Not even to save my life
You have my pity forevermore
Cause I'll never be your wife

So kindly go die in a hole
And uplift my disgusted soul

It’s a strange sadness upon me now.
A sad of
What am I doing to her?
A sad of
Why is my body falling apart?
A sad of
Just three more weeks, but 5 assignments
A sad of
Yearning. For him.
A sad of
I don’t know what to do
Or what has been done
Or how to proceed
Without making more people sad
Without breaking more hearts
Because when I was with him
So much of me was determined
That it would last
Forever
And so much of me was happy
That I wouldn’t have the chance
To hurt anyone else
And now I have free reign.
Ready folks? Here I go.
Hearts, y’all best get broken!

I tend to run
Freak out and run
Run from
Run to
Run from again
Something within me drives me forwards

I'm still learning the difference
Between love and lust
Affection, attraction, and admiration
They feel similar

Too often I don't understand what I am feeling
Too often I don't know what I'm doing

******* things up
Breaking hearts
I'm danger.

I'm a troll in a deep dark hole...

I think I've forgotten how to be alone.

"Honest to God I will break your heart"

A paper cup overflows
           Spills
                  Breaks

All is transient.


"I would have wanted to keep trying"
I know.

"Is there anything else you want to say?"

Silence.
A hug.
No glances back.