I know when you stare at me,
It's her eyes you see.
But I'm not her.
And I'm not what you're searching for.
I've fallen in too deep.
So deep that I'm willing to give up everything.
But I'm afraid.
Afraid of how easily you'd throw it all away for her.
To have her in your arms.
To feel again.
To love.
For her,
You'll give us up.

Actions & Words.
Two things that should always go together,
But actions always speaks louder than words.

No matter how much one says something,
It is only believed by the actions that follow.
By what we can feel, by what we can see.

You know the truth by the way it feels,
No matter how much times you try to shake it off,
Or throw it off track.

I think this is why,
Why my mind never believed in what you said.
- Though my heart believed otherwise.

My eyes could clearly see,
Something my heart couldn't.
And yet, It still fell. Each and every time.

Getting high is said to be relaxing and fun.
But no one ever said anything about being high on you,
-- being high on love.

Craving you,
Wanting you more and more,
as the day goes by.

Let me just tell you that being high on you is not fun at all.
Nor is it relaxing.
You have left me high and so ******* dry.

Craving for you more than ever,
Only to find out that I am nothing to you.
-- That I'll never be anything to you.

i act like i'm something special
when we all know nothing is
and the people sit there and they judge me
for the all stupid **** that i did

but I've woken up sweating in jail cells
sick from all the DTs and shakes
and i watched the woman i loved
leave a week before our wedding date

and i can remember the first time a pig
put his gun against my ******* head
said "make a move you ******* ******
and i swear to god that i'll shoot you dead"

i've seen more friends than i care to remember
passed out with needles in their veins
i've wept beside to many grave sides
to ever wanna go that way

i've shredded my throat since i was twelve
smoking a minimum two packs a day
and even at my very worst
i still can't bring myself to pray

i've lost far too much in this world
for someone whose not yet twenty five
all i can say at the end of the day is
"though i may fail at least i try"

so i sit back and let people judge me
cause they don't know the **** i've been through
and i'll keep saying i'm something special
even though we all know its not true

Falling too quickly,
Too sudden,
And too hard.

I trusted you, let you in,
And gave you all the weapons.
Everything you need to catch me or destroy me.

I opened up my heart,
Trusting that you would hold it,
Hold it and keep it warm, like how you hold my hands everyday without a fail - But you just reminded me why things break when they fall.

You just got my heart and ripped it out.
Left me feeling empty, ******, and bad about myself.
Letting me fall but without you on the other end,
leaving me broken and shattered.