Her lips are red
Her eyes are blue
You see her falling
But not for you.

E.s.

Your voice boomed
Through every room
Into the dim halls
The echo was everything
Everything but you

I searched your eyes
You told me to do so
I felt birth that moment
The pain, the blood
I felt the end as it begun

It is all or nothing to you
A furious earthquake
Knocking down every wall
Or nothing, absolutely nothing at all

The nights get shorter
Your hands grow colder
The moments there
And then suddenly,
Into a great abyss
Into a black hole
Everything is older
Even the drugs now
Give me the cold shoulder.

E.s.

The weight of the world
Sits on his chest
As he breaths
He grasps for it
Rose petals fall
Straight from his head
As his eyes burn
Like fire, again, and again
Mouth sewed shut
Her needle pokes through
Stippling his heart
Like a car wreck
The moment his hands left
He can't remember
When he lost control
Drunk driving
Into her soul

E.s.

The blood
It traces
Every feeling
Known to man

The moment
It stays
Only fleeting
We are dying

Make love
Setting the memories on fire
It's all you have
It's never leaving
Always breathing
Until the last man forgets

e.s.

Our gaze looks towards the wall
memories and moments
shatter it all

you
not
him

I wonder why these thoughts run
like water filling my mind
it escapes first

through
my
eyes

My mouth pours open
what does it mean
if I tell you what I think

I want to
see you
Sunday

I fell for you when
you weren't even looking
distant eyes

over
here
meet mine

alone, we could be
I wonder all the time
if you fit me

I wanna see you
Sunday
e.s.

i am a racing heart
i am a network of pain pumping veins
i am sweating palms and bruised collarbones
i am tired arms
i am battered limbs and swollen lips
i am scratches on hips
i  am the calm before the storm and the smell after it rains
i am the curl of your toes into the duvet
i am brittle bones and aching muscles
i am tired eyes and dry throat
i am arms around your waist and lips pressed to your neck
i am salty beads on slick skin
i am wobbly knees and tongue against cheek
i am unstable steps of insecurity
i am a slur ushered at 2 a.m when you forget you don't like girls like me
i am soft cries into pillows when i remember you don't like girls like me

e.s

Ich will keine Ausreden brauchen
zu bleiben oder gehen;
ich will nur die Fähigkeit haben
zu bleiben oder gehen als es mir beliebt.

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I don't want to need Excuses
to stay or go;
I just want to have the Ability
to stay or go as it pleases me.