Sleep.
Please let me sleep.
I shut my eyes.
I count the sheep.
But still I lay here.
And still I think.
Sleep.
1. 2. 3. 4. Sheep.
Keep on counting.
The thoughts are hounding.
It drives me crazy.
So I stay awake.

As of lately I have felt more free
But not in sense that one would naturally assume.  
My freedom is one more personal to me,
It is one that is still in bloom.  
Yes, to some freedom is money,
Life is all about acquiring wealth.
Well let me tell you something honey,
One thing more important is health.
Others may require something deeper,
Something one may not see with the naked eye.
Yet one day you may come across a keeper,
And without knowing, you let them pass by.  
Love is something everyone searches for,
Whether that be in money, people, or possessions.
Yet somehow we always require much more,
And desires turn into obsessions.  
Once we require more and more,
We become human parasites.
There is nothing more to explore,
We will have tarnished our paradise.  
Do not live in past, there's no need to rewind.
Do not live in times yet to come, they have yet to occur
Just try to relax your mind,
And to the present moment you will transfer.
There is something beautiful and FREE about living in the now,
A poem may not even suffice.
It's a mindset rebirth, one you have to allow.  
Yet, I highly recommend you take my advice ❤

I don’t know why
But I can’t sleep tonight
‘Cause you’re running in my soul
in my heart
in my mind
All the time

It’s on replay
The words you said tonight
The way the lights
caught into your eyes
And you smile
right at me

Take me to your arms
You’ll know how much I care
Take me to your heart
I’ll always be there
And take us to a place where you and I
without a shed of fear
be who we are

Come take my hand and hold me tight
Maybe there’s a reason why we’re here tonight
Staring at the sky full of lights
Come alive in the night
This is the moment
that I see
when I look into your eyes.

My heart is a black hole now that you're gone
I lay awake in my bed at night
Thinking about what we used to be
How we made love right here
And when you used to sleep next to me
I think about you in bed at night
And cry myself to sleep

I lay awake,
Feeling fake.
I lie to my friends,
Saying I'm happy till the end.
I'm happy I'm fine I'm okay,
But really I wanna cry and fade away.
Cry and cry till I can't no more,
And I feel like I'm a bore.
Feelings aren't cheep,
And now I want to sleep.

I'm all alone tonight,
Meaning my fears come and bite.
They try to strike fear in me,
And it stings like a buzzing bee.
I try to talk to my friends,
but they have to go before the convo begins.
So i lay here on my bed,
Over thinking is making me dead.
I think and think,
My eyes are turning pink.
My eyes are tearing up,
And in my throat there is a lump.
I'm trying not to cry,
So I sit there and sigh.
What a night to be alive,
In my mind, I'll go for a dive.

If you were here -
I'd be warm. Cool. In between.
Hungry. Full.
Somewhere in between -
Amongst the push and pull.
Tired. Awake.
One or the other -
Stir. Shake.
Shiver. Sweat.
Remember. Forget.
If you were here -
Shiver. Shake.
If be either sleep or
Awake.
But here I am -
Stuck.
Push, pull
Back, forth

****.