Never apologize for
being who you are.
Only you know the
depth of the ocean
you took a dive in.

Poison


My pain is contagious, so don’t come any closer;
I don’t want you to suffer, as I must suffer.
I won’t let this pain, eat away at you too.
This is my cross to carry;
Don’t let it be a burden to you.


For one must hurt and two can’t suffer in silence.
For you to be free, I alone must go through this.


Keep your distance and I’ll keep my promises,
To keep you away from all this sadness.
Even though you and I, I wish could be;
I have to hurt you sooner, rather than later,
To allow you to be free.


Please accept this as fact and please accept my apologies.
Accept this is the way, things have to be.
Accept you’re better off without me.
Please accept my best wishes
And deny any feelings you may feel.


For you can do better, have had better and are better.
You can avoid this sad sorrow, forever and ever.
You can find happiness, with someone who can be happy;
But I shall always get depressed.  There is no cure for me.


Imagine a dark mist, seeping into your skin,
Then you will understand what it is like to be loved by me.
You can try all you like, to make me happy;
But I’m a cancer of the heart,
So I won’t drag you down with this sinking ship.


(C)2013 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Saw him coming in,
I folded my leg such that my knees touching my breast,
staring at him angrily,
He curled his legs around me
locked me between his thighs,
I was looking all around
except for his eyes,
I lose myself in those .
His fingers playing across my legs,
I bit my lips controlling myself,
His fingers now lost in my tresses, he murmured
babe I want to  share your load,
let me just take it from here,
confused I looked into his eyes,
he came closer
his tongue talking to my lips,
I slipped a smile
again we both  lost in our world of love.

Am I to let go once again
To play the fool I have mocked from that day
Am I going to refuse chances
To play the coward I have avoided since that day
I wish I approached this with not fear but acceptance
like I've trained myself to all this while
But honestly I feel the scars to this day
Not the pain I received but rather from the pain I gave

For this emotion's complexity runs far too wide
I am only human
Humans don't walk into caves with no torch
Nor do they dive into oceans without tanks
I open my mouth only to utter silence
For I am speechless in heart but screaming in mind

I apologise in advance with all sincerity
That I treat this with such hesitance
It's not that I'm made of wood or rock
I show no emotion not because I'm heartless
But because I have felt so much, that it no longer tugs my remaining heartstrings
Perhaps I am not worthy of such magic

But i hope you see that your intelligence is boundless
That your kindness awes me and your beauty stuns me truly
But above all, that your imperfections are what gives you identity
Treasure every scar for what makes you captivating is not the amount of outfits you own
But the strength of your honesty

I miss the innocence that we once shared
But I am torn up now
Unwanted and thrown aside
My struggle shall echo in this cave that I've lost myself in
As I take steps forward round and round
Pulling the chains that **** me, pulling the locks that bind me
Clinging on to the hope that you have given me
For it is what I selfishly take for my own