The first drop of honeydew,

the divine sweetness that I never knew,

It's all artificial that, much I'm aware

But God Forbidden,

it's hard to bear.

One by one, these pills,

I clasp in one hand

and pour water to run them down quickly,

slowly, they take their roots

grew out, only to turn out so beautifully

a shame it's a sight only I can see.

somehow, it made me realize that they are

like blossoming roses just for me

a whole garden has been opened

funnily enough,

I've become a gardener of this ecstasy,

I've arrived Knowingly and unknowingly.

to the door which I've opened

where I'm welcomed and beloved

by only those lovingly me

tenderly.

You called out my addiction like my first

name was prescription, getting hanged by

Mr.  Holding on to my last breath like death

was upon me, I was scalding looking for

ways to put out the flames but I was over

charging, hoping one day my scars that

bathed my back would be seen; like a slave

who smelled the leather across its skin

where do I begin, the sins were embedded

in my tissue, thinking that each whip was

inhumane because my soul was too much

to be detained, I wasn’t pouring in to

myself, missing out on ways that defined

my health, a soul crippling cause I couldn’t

see my wealth, I dealt with my shadows

and empty out a well, a space echoed out a

yell like a beast that was trapped in a cell;

peering into the water that was only knee

deep I saw the imprisoned truth that I set

lose so that pebble wouldn’t ricochet

against me, getting goosebumps I escaped

the noose, I reconstructed my foundation

and  catered to the inner me that I grown too