I. Still. Love. You.
My heart is yours.
Take it. Keep it.
Its ridiculous you can shatter it
Yet I wanna give it to you
I deserve more but *******
I want any kiss
Any touch
I can get.
Same girl
Same miss
Same poem
Break me

I thought that I would always agree with that old saying
"Better to have loved and lost than to have never loved at all"
But recently you shattered my heart for the second time
And I swear to god I wish I had never loved you
It is the worst thing I've ever done

I never know what to do with my hands
Their favorite thing to do is touch you
Now you aren't here
I'm homesick for arms that don't want to hold me
My "last drink" just became the eleventh
But nothing at all has changed
I still love you, I still love you,
I still love you

Please kiss me
Please change your mind
Please be mine
Please
Please
Please

Everytime I kiss you I do it like it may be the last
Even though I am praying that it won't be
The only prayers god hears from me
Are when I am asking him for you
Dear God please let me have her
Dear God please make her mine
When I hold your hand I swear it is like
I am touching a star
7 billion people on this planet
and your eyes and smile are my favorite
I wish the hickeys I give you would be permanent
So that you'd be reminded of me whenever
You want to wear a v-neck shirt and can't


                              When I fell in love with you on the first day I saw you
                         It should have been the day I started planning my funeral

I can't move mountains for you
But ******* i'd try

I've heard them say
people with the same horoscope aren't compatible
Our birthdays are less than 24 hours apart
I think you were made for me
and maybe I wasn't made for you
Baby you light a fire inside of me so big
that it will never ever be put out
When we kiss my heart beats so hard
I know you can feel it through your jacket
when I look into your eyes
It is similar to staring down the barrel of a gun
tequila makes me numb
But I always feel you twisted in my ribcage
clinging to you is exhausting
Yet youre still the reason I don't get any sleep
waiting for you to love me back is
Shouting until my lungs bleed and waiting
for the echo I'll never hear

The night I stayed at your house it stormed
My heart was beating so fast
I couldn't tell it apart from thunder

Your mother hates the way I look at you
She thinks I'm a dumb girl who just wants to hold your hand
I want to mail her letters telling her:

I can hold your daughter tighter than anyone else
And she holds me so tightly my ribs crack
I can't look at the stars without seeing her
She is more than everything to me
I fall asleep dreaming of my lips on her cheek
Do not ******* tell me
*She needs the love of a man

You may be the warmest person I know but
I still shiver when you touch me
You have been on my mind every day & night since I met you
My love for you is a explosive red hot bursting flame
Sometimes I feel like yours nothing but a candle
I think I was blind before I knew you but now you're all I see
Maybe I could sleep at night if we had never met

The power went out on the day you left me
I sliced my wrists in the darkness
The towel absorbed my intoxicated blood
I screamed into my pillow all night
I screamed inside my car the next morning

My clock is still flashing from that power outage
My voice is still hoarse and my throat is still raw
I kissed her yesterday but thought of you
I'm sure she could only taste your  name

I don't want this to break
I haven't learned to let go of things gently yet
You always said you wanted smooth sailing
But you called me a tsunami
Your messages collect like dust in my phone
I will not get rid of them

I wish the hickeys you gave me would stay and turn permanent
Constant reminders of you
Scratching my teeth when you kiss me, my throat bleeds when i kiss you back
I wonder if you can taste it
My heart shatters and crumbles when I moan into your ear
You won't pick up the pieces
Instead you'll share ***** and watch me hold my feelings inside
Drunk or sober you call me beautiful
Drunk or sober I'll cling to the hope you might love me back

Things are supposed to get better with time
But I have just been missing you more and more

Im pathetically waiting for the
Person will probably never want me
To change their mind and want me again

Your name is a rope around my neck
That keeps getting tighter and tighter
I have been drunk for eleven days straight
Only switching up between ***** and laxatives

Maybe if I lose some weight, a few pounds
Maybe if I write you drunk poems every night
Maybe if I placed your hand up into my rib cage
Maybe you'd believe that my heart only beats for you

I need to wire my jaw shut
So you will stop tumbling out my mouth
Tumbling quick and hard and sudden
Much like rocks tumbling from a cliff
You are a cliff I want to throw myself from

I knew my hands would have scars
From clinging to you so tightly
I'm still clinging
I'm still getting scars

I hope you are thinking of me, especially now
Like the way I am thinking of crashing my car

You left bruises on my wrists and I wore them like bracelets
The slurred and stuttered words
I'm sorry and Never again
Always spilled from your intoxicated mouth
But your sober attacks on me and wrecking ball-like-fists
Always spoke louder than your drunken words

All I want to do right now
Is toss myself onto the street
With my bottle of *****

I know for sure
the spinning of a tire
against my spine
would feel better

Than to keep thinking
of you losing the slight
infatuation you have for me
and you wanting
someone else.

I need to have more  faith
I smoke using pages of the Bible
I need you to hold me
Squeeze forgiveness from me

I am drinking so much
My blood smells like ***
I can't walk a straight line
Even if I am sleepwalking

Words break out of my ribcage
I try to un-write them

Suicide has been on my mind
I struggle every single morning
Not to crash my car

Routine heartbreak has left me so bitter and empty.
Too much of a coward to **** myself, I will continue
Wishing on a meteor to crash into me, leaving nothing
But a wisp of air and ash where I used to be.