Anxiety is preparing yourself to say "here" when the teacher does attendance.
Anxiety is shaking so bad you can barely keep food on a spoon.
Anxiety is being so quiet that even your mind stops for a second.
Anxiety is never texting first because you feel needy.
Anxiety is not being able to walk up to the teacher to hand in a paper.
Anxiety is always sitting in the back of the class so you don't feel eyes know you.
Anxiety is being afraid. All the time. Afraid to love, to smile,  or even to say hello.
Anxiety is only having a few friends because it's hard to talk to people you don't know.
Anxiety is wanting to talk to the cute boy who sits across from you, but you're afraid of him knowing the real you.
Anxiety is finally saying hello

20 times in your head

kaakit-akit ang katahimikan ng gabi
habang tinitingnan kita, hindi gumagalaw
ako'y nanginginig sa ibinalik **** titig
yinakap mo ako sa liwanag mo
pero kataka-takang hindi man lang kita
nahawakan
sana pwede kitang mahaplos kahit sandali
lang
mahulog ka sa aking mga braso
pero nakakalungkot
ang katotohanan ay hindi magpapalaya sa
akin
nandyan ka lang
parang hari nakatanaw sa kanyang mga
alipin
parang pinta na nakasabit sa dingding
para sa mata lamang
sana balang araw mahulog ka
para masalo kita
oh, aking mahal na bituin
©IGMS

Dear Reader,

Run.
Run as fast as you can.
Run till you feel like you'll fall off the face of the Earth.
But,
By now you should have learned that you'll never escape me.

Yours Truly,
*The Past~