My bed's getting colder
And so with the people I know
I hardly remember the warmth
All I can do is worry
It's not the same anymore
When you're stuck, you're not trying
Standing still when your world's moving
Crying in the dark corners, can't bear this feeling
I never felt so alone & lonely
I'm scared when no one's talking to me
Cause I can't trust myself when talking alone
I'm tired of always being available to some
Dried up from giving the energy
Wish I could love myself even more
Cause everyday feels like a punishment
What has left on me?
The negativity?
The anxiety?
Because I'm no more the things I used to love.

Nine months
Of blissful ignorance

Nine months
Of peace

Nine months
Of rest

Nine months
Of safety

Nine months
Of love

Nine months
Without heartbreak

Nine months
Of growth

Nine months... was all we got

What gave the World the right to rob us of so much?

it's been longer than i'd like to admit
since i last heard your voice
with your uncanny ability
to turn my blood into liquid gold.
i can no longer hear you
calling my name,
but i can still taste the honey
that poured from your lips
as i drowned in each sacred kiss.