Bad points:
Look you're stuck in a ditch
Trying to be rich, yet you pass your paycheck a needy *****
Hitch a ride for me daddy, now look you're a caddy
Dragging her ***** to get to that sweet hole in one
Yeah their not yours anymore, her names tattooed on em
You're like Shenron during these shenanigans
And she hasn't even decided what to wish on
You're an idiot, thinking you only needed space
So you could clear out that bad taste from your mouth but
Here you are wasting your time going back to her place
Here you tarnish your name and become the disgrace
Here you become one with the dirt and own a two face
Because you loved her and wanted everything to work out
Because you're the fighter who always ended up bleeding out
Because you love to suffer, glasses so thick you don't need another
So dumb down the incident and make her innocent
She only tells half-truths anyways and you always take the blame
You always let this happen you molded it until it sprouted
Then you planted the poison of "hey I'm only human, and people can change with patience."
So be patient spreading more positivity in your proximity
And be that person you wannabe, creating an environment with no identity, breathe it in...you're the placebo
No one knows anything from what you know
You've carried her this whole time you're the soil
She dug her roots into so deep she's guiding the way
Let's get to the root of the matter and admit the depression was an oppressive method to get you to stay
The hug of one individual kept anxieties at bay
No need to see a shrink or go to the doctors because you got this bae
Take all the stress and conflict with your interests, you know what just toss it away
No one knows what you've dealt with and that is one hundred
No one needs to know our issues is what she would've wanted
Hell she even told you that during most of the problematic times
You sought for professional help where she offensively confronted
Always conflicted, just chill and Netflix it
People change when they want to, like the butterfly effect
you can't force it
Not even a skewed point of view would let you see the bottomless pit you've been digging
This is the end the bitterness composed with a mixture of bubble tea and gin
Where to begin, Where to even start as an empty shell of imitation
I am the spear it, shaped like a dagger yet light as a feather
Never better held stronger bent together in any weather, I've been flung and tossed around, stuck to any place she plots me
I've taken responsibility for the ******* and kept the front smiling
Ooo, now is that the distance or the disease that hurts more when you sneeze in the spring
Cause you spring to action faster than Alka Seltzer Plus
You worry wart *** stressing out faster than the flash with Godspeed
A panicking strike of lightning written on your face heart beating pace nothing beats a good ache
Seriously you need to take care of yourself for once
This is your standing ovation, make this your motivation
Get yourself the help you need and be truly happy too,
You can't fix the puzzle that has missing pieces
Having faith is something different than believing prejudices
Pass the blessings of a Christ and backlash on others for having a born circumstance
Standing on others and professing you're correct, yet not having any answers to how that you're right
"It's not my place to judge, but please no Muslims."
Double standards in your face a clan raised all by rights (whites)
But it's okay this is the correct faith, tales of the traveling pants
I was told personally that I wasn't there for me so why am I still believing for
Regardless it's my choice and this is a sound of the voice
The tears that choke the noise, the truth that is projected by altar boys
I've been in the crypt the whole time, dug seven feet deep maybe deeper in this chapter of my lifetime
But that not the point and never will be
But still, others will poke and try to solve my jigsaw forcibly
People who claimed to be there closely only judging me holy
For only those who were there will ever know the pain I shared
Good points:
Remember all the good times
You love her you do, you want to be there for her that's true
Pushing past like you usually do, sticking to together like glue
You've worked so hard to see this dude, you really should just see this through
This isn't your first time doing the break for a while
Its always been an uphill battle with cuddles and care
The struggle is rare, you were a duet of passion between the two
There's nothing to fear for she's shared the same tears
And you're just scared a ***** afraid of something new
She said she would change, she's changing for you
You're so sad, wanna rush out of here so bad
So mad that she hit you, she was intoxicated and bit you
But you trippin, sipping that tea so angrily
And you claim it's not that she hit you, left marks on your cheeks,
She said sorry, so forgive her this is a new cycle, let's recycle
And dance like Michael, "Owh!"
You know she is the one who bought your car, gave you wheels to travel, you claim her to be needy but here you are constantly snacking
Took her large sum of gift, told her no but accepted them
And she didn't have to do that, she did it out of love, affection, true connections
You're predicting a conviction where you've yet to have transcended into some kinda fiction labeling them as facts
You need to break from that subscription cause you love her to death and that's something that will always be written on your chest
How dare you tell her you don't love her
How dare you step down to seek comfort
How dare you negate that you can't be there in her most dire needs
I am always constantly worrying, and I took the right approach
I couldn't do anything by myself, it was a boiling point that has evaporated
There was no more water in that ***, I didn't refill it
Where would I be if she never showed it
That first step of love be more heroic, you blew it they know it
Stop turning your back on her you're a poet
Paint a pretty picture and pretend everything is okay
You've done it so long what's stopping you today?
I will begin to write more personal impulses after dealing with a loved one for seven years. I wanted to get married to her and have a family. I wanted to spend my life with her and gaze at her incredible smile, but you can't plant a smile on a face with no foundation.