Oh how I wish that you still wrote
So it could be like the beginning
Reading your poetry, quote by quote
Installing the words in my memory

Breaking it down over to replay it
Every word, comma and period
Picturing how you would say it
Wishing I could really hear it

You're really something to write for
Other than that, my words are stuck
If I could go back to how it was before
I'd give my last wrinkled buck

Lips dusted with *******
Every kiss has you addicted

Sniffing out all this pain
To make it through the life im living

Selling my soul for pocket change
Hoping to see the end of the day

Slits on my wrists
Looking like a checklist

Internal bruises
And burnt cigarette lips

Sleepless nights
Staring at the city lights

Inhalation and contemplation
Oh, how devastating the decisions im making  

I used to be this rose growing from the concrete
Now I'm just a penny lying on the street

**** boy, I thought you were by my side
I couldn't read in between the lines
'*** I was mesmerized & hypnotized
By your big brown eyes

Thought we had the same feelings
But I guess I was only appealing
To your eyes used for seeing
And not believing

When you saw, what did you see?
You looked at me
Then asked me “Are you happy?”
That what we had was unraveling

Nobody compares to you
With all the things you put me through
I slipped saying “I love you”
And you still played me like a fool
...........

She drinks when she feels the tears coming in
Drowning away from all her sin

Feeling unloved & unwanted
Everything from her past haunted
                        
She thinks, ‘how could this be my life
What have I not done right ?’
                      
With all her demons she had to conquer
She tried her hardest to prosper

Fakes her smiles & you can't even tell
She's been through everything, even to Hell  

But what happens when you don't like what's looking you in the mirror ?
She screams so loud but no one can hear her