Out of control.
         Sometimes they're
  the same thing.
                         the trick is knowing
that,realizing  
                     it's okay to feel
                                                     out of control
     once in a while,
       as long as
   you're sure
                                      you can regain
          the upper hand
                                         when you
         absolutely need to.
                                                 and really , when
             it comes to my
reclaiming control,
it comes down to one
simple little thing,
something i sometimes
have difficulty with
          
saying no.....

People many think
Life is easy as you
Think it is
Life is
Life.
That you live in
Money is really not important
Water well is important
If you tried everthing
In life you will
Learn alots of
Things
Life is just life you
Live
In.....

There were no days
There were no nights
Eighteen months was nothing
And it was eternity
Sixteen years of thought trapped in circuitry
A spinning galss ball
Shattering inward,moment by airless moment
But everyone says, DON'T TELL
How can I not?

I an alone
So very lonely
I injured
very badly
But i ignored
Just thrown away
I am safely
For others to have
I am alone
There is no one close
No one knows the pain
I cry...
Hope is gone
I am alone
And no one sees

There is a dark place
A place where I have no eyes,no mouth. No words.
I can't cry out because I have no breath. The silence is so deep I want to die.
But I can't
The darkness and silence go on forever.
It is not a dream
I don't dream....

Roses are red
Violets are blue
You've planted flowers
All over my body
And in my head..
I feel sad, emptly
As your away
The flower died and
I'm not okey

i might be an amateur
i may not know everything
but i know sense when i see it,
and this sure ain't it
You can't tell someone
to leave someone
if he's with someone else
when you are the someone else
someone else
is with
when i say so,
she twists up her face
i want to show her
my report card
my straight A's in chem II, sat score 2175,
my honor roll certificates
and my history fair ribbon
(third place)
i may not know much about the complex world of grown ups
but i know right when i see it
and this sure ain't it.....

rose's are red
violet's are blue
i have 5 fingers
and the middle
is for
you!!!

Roses are red
Heres something new
Violets are violet
Not ******* blue

One day you'll
                     Meet someone
Who doesn't
                     Care about your
Past because
                They want to
Be with you
                   In your future.

Do you or don't you have a girl-
                      friend? if you do,is she prettier
                                 than me? if you do,do you
                                                 sleep around on her?
                                                              if you do,would
                                                                 you sleep with me?
                                                                     Even if you don't
                                                                    have a girlfriend,
                                                                    wounld you pretty
                                                                 please sleep with
                                                             me? Have you ever
                                                          slept with a student?
                                                        if you have,was she
                                                      prettier than me? Even
                                                    if you've never slept
                                                 with a student,would
                                               you pretty please sleep
                                             with me? Is this over-
                                            whelming attraction
                                              really mutual,or
                                              is my believing
                                              that just a sign
                                              of    impending
                                              insanity?Is my


                                             lunacy on the
                                             horizon,or is
                                             it ready here?

I am breathless
I am lifeless
I am lost in my own skin
My days know no beginning
Nor do they know an end

Someday you'll cry for me
Like i cried for you
Someday you'll miss me
Like i missed you
Someday you'll need me
Like i needed you
Someday you'll love me
But i wont love you

I won't food
But can you help
Me
Find food
Or
I'm going
To die....and
When I do
No one
Cares.....

Sleepy eyes
Boney knees
falling upward/ feeling down
Blue Blue Blue

Remember how bright my eyes were
When you met me


I told myself i would't
pen that name again
But we're on slurred terms now

you were nothing to save
you were nothing

I don't sleep
I hold on to my bed
The backups must go
My fingers dig into my sheets
I want sleep.forget.melt into night.
But
What if something goes wrong?
I may need them
It is only information
Limbo
Drealand
That's all
And if I try hard enough
Maybe I can forget the dark place where
They
We
Are...

A bit for someone here
A bit there
And sometimes they don't add up to anythhing whole
But you are so busy dancing
Delivering
You don't have time to notice
Or are afraid to notice
And then one day you have to look
And its true
All of your pieces fill up other peoples holes
But they don't fill
Your own...

I needed it like I needed air
But no one counld hear me
No one could listen
No words. No sound
No voice
I couldn't even dream myself away
Choices were mine
At first I wondered if it was hell
And then I knew it was......

U call
U don't
U love
U hate
U ****
U cry
But one thing
Is
Missing
In
U
Is
A
Smile....

When u where leaveing I said
StAY...
Don't

Leave
I just wonted you to
Stay
Stay
With me....
I'm alone don't leave
Me
I loved
You
But
Your
Gone
Now what
Can I don't without...
You
U where allways
There
But
Now u are
Not
There
Stay....please....please...

I don't wanna
Talk to you
You make me
Sick like allways
I smell madness
Near me
I'm mad I'm
Mad
I don't
Wannna
Talk

The time for hiding is over.
Protect your family and your freedom .
   One whole country,
   one whole family.......
Which wound you choose Family or Freedom

There are words.
Words I don't remember.
Not obscure words that I wouldn't be expected to know.
But simple onces.
Jump.hot.apple.
Time
I look them up
I will never forget them agin.
Where did those word go,
Those words that were once in my head?

Tell me it’s not really over
Tell me we didn’t just say goodbye
Tell me we can begin again
Tell me we’re worth one last try

The
Silence
Darkness
Nothing
Please
Let us go
Help us
We need you
Hurry
We need you

I feel alone
Sitting round
Thinking about you
Wish I can telll
You how much
I miss you
I'm sorry
I want you
To know
I
Love
You....

Empty Words
Are all I hear.
Lies Upon Lies
Are What They Are.
Cold Words Cut me Deeply.
Last Pain That Never Seems To Go
Words Are Like What I Hear.

I feel alone
sitting round
thinking about you
wish i can tell
you how much
I miss you
I'm sorry
I want
you to know
I LOVE YOU.....

I
Wait
Wait...
But I hear nothing
So...
I wait
For answer
And
I
Wait
Wait....

l.o.v.e
Y.o.u
U.
B.u.t.
D.o
U
L.o.v.e
M.e

U told me u love
Me
U used me
I loved u but
U never
Loved
Me....

He's mean you see
He's a murderer
   He killed a young girl
       No one knows but me
Her smiled melted hearts
She lit up the room
       But now she's gone
All that's left is gloom
No one has noticed
  They just don't care
             She's gone in the worst
        Yet there's happiness in the air
Smirk on his face
She will never be free
He killed the girl
The girl i used to be