all this time,
i could never imagine that
this day would eventually come.

the day when someone would actually make me a priority.
the day when someone would actually be willing to stay awake for me.
the day when someone would actually be willing to take risks for me.
the day when someone would actually look at me dead in the eye and tell me that i'm beautiful.
the day when i could actually feel that i'm being loved unconditionally.
the day when i could actually bare myself until the very last fragment; until the deepest, darkest piece of me.

all hell breaks loose when you and i found each other.

I knew that it was bad when I could barely talk myself out of bed in the morning. And when I did, I counted down the hours until I could drown my sorrows again.

In sullen stride of affirmation,
I felt no dream of destination;
But in drowning deceit of sick starvation,
I sighed in hopes of constellations.
In worlds between of deprivation,
I surrendered my frame to degradation.
Out of full eyed, absent minded generations
Came my continuous reformation.

is it wrong to feel sadness
for the only sadness you've
known? misery isn't a

*******

competition.

I tried to tell the truth but they smothered me,
No one wants the truth-- no one wants that responsibility.

Undefeated and never ending
I just don't know what I'll do
So i go
To my room

There the silence is
So unbending and so unbreakable too
So I sing
In my room

Words of passion and words of hatred
Words of love so true
Echo loud
In my room

War is raging and footsteps pacing
in the morning at two
So I stay
In my room