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Oliver Sep 2018
Step one: Never let
Anyone get close to you.
I failed step one.

Step two: Don’t ever
Show anyone that you care.
I failed step two.

Step three: For the love
Of god, don’t hope that they’ll stay.
I failed step three.
Oliver Sep 2018
It’s a sickness of the mind
Clouding judgements, thoughts, visions
It leaves you utterly blind
To all you leave behind
And quite soon you will find
You made all the wrong decisions

It breaks your every bone
Leaves you crying and alone
It all happened so fast
Your life slipped out of your grasp
Before you could start to say
“Come back, I love you, please stay”

Love is doomed to fail
Of that you must be sure
Sadness will prevail
Your face is going pale
Your heart is oh so frail
Can’t force love to be pure

Hearts break and shatter
So better to keep it hidden
Away from all the chatter
From those you think matter
Ignore the pitter-patter
Or the ache again will begin

It breaks your every bone
Leaves you crying and alone
It all happened so fast
Your life slipped out of your grasp
Before you could start to say
“Come back, I love you, please stay”
Oliver Sep 2018
There is a haiku
Waiting to be written, but
Never written down.
Oliver Sep 2018
“Oh, I forgot about you”
There goes a brick.

“You don’t mind if we go without you, right?”
Thud, there’s another.

“Could you just shut up for a second?”
Another.

“I can’t be around you when you’re sad”
Another.

“What’s wrong with you? I have it worse”
And another.

“Honestly, I didn’t notice you were here”
The bricks stack nicely on one another.

“I’d rather hang out with someone else, sorry”
My hands are raw from building.

“You’re a friend, you’re just not a best friend, y’know?”
The wall is getting higher.

“...”
I can’t see anyone anymore.
Oliver Sep 2018
I thought you did
Perhaps I was right
But only for a night
Should I even still write?
Did I give you a fright?
I said I wouldn’t bite
Was it even a fight?
I think I caused your flight.

I thought we were
Altogether okay
Was it just for a day?
Did you simply play?
Did I push you away?
I wanted you to stay
The light turned to grey
My heart starts to fray
I think I lost my way.

I thought I could
Stop wanting to cry
Stop asking why
I wish I could lie
My mind wants to die
Look me in the eye
Tell me why I still try?
I’m screaming at the sky
I think I’ve bled dry.
Oliver Sep 2018
Can I press pause
So I can take a breath
And hopefully find the cause
Of my loud mind’s death

Could I press rewind
To see where I went wrong
Perhaps I will find
That I never did belong

Maybe I should fast forward
To see if it gets better
Sadly I’m a coward
Believe the future is bitter

Stop seems the only choice
My disappointing movie will end
The world will surely rejoice
And I won’t have to pretend.
Oliver Sep 2018
Mind always scattered
Too many thoughts, all at once
All of them of you.
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