You wake up from a deep sleep
The only break you'll ever get
From the pain that never goes away
And the world that tries to bet

You see flowers blooming in the garden
Spring has arrived and winter has past
But the coldness that lives inside you
Will continue to last

Stop following me
I've had enough of this
I told you a million times I'm done
But the invisible shadow holds on tight
There's no place you can run

The school bell rings it's awful ring
Your late again it's no surprise
You wish the people surrounding you
Could see the pain that fills your eyes

One hour feels like a day
And a minute like a few
Staring at the clock
Is now the only thing you do

I don't know why it must be me
To have to deal with this
Or anyone for that matter
It only makes you ******

I just want to feel normal
And be who I want to be
Be like the ones who walk around with no fears
No amount of words can express
How much I want that to be me

I've tried so many things
I mixed so many potions and creams
I'm still waiting for the day
Where I can finally live out my dreams

To show everyone who I am
And how much I can do
To prove to all the heartless
How much I have improved

But still the shadow follows me
It wraps around my heart
It waits for me to give up
It waits deep within the dark

It feels like the end
I can never get a grip
Get away I always yell
But I fall and I trip

Down I fall over and over
The light becomes distant and grey
My curtains close and lock
The dark is where I lay

For my life is like an ocean
That is trapped inside a sphere
A ruthless demon shakes and stirs it
A silent scream is all I hear

I've tried the pills
And I've count to ten
But I'm still trapped inside this darkness
An ink cartridge in a pen

I try to unlock the doors
To shove the darkness out
But darkness always wins
I'm stuck within this drought

I'm struggling to breathe
And I shake with every move
I'm still searching for that holy grail
That will **** the pain and soothe

It might be days
It might be years
I may never find a cure
But I know that I am stronger than most
Because of all I have endured

So as I turn off the lights to go to sleep
I know it's not the end
But I know I'm one step closer
To say goodbye to my best friend