Echoes of yesteryear’s
Blissful laughter
Fade away
As new profound
Sorrow blooms.
Disoriented in the murkiness
Of a wistful haze
Writhing in unending
Spasmodic aches

A new day is born
The mid-morning
Deceptive sunshine
Briefly kisses my skin
The sweet taste
Of what it means
To be human

The paralyzing
Feeling of unraveling
As the May icy winds whistle
Through the eucalyptus trees
Forbodes of calamity.

The truism of a fading facade
Diminished novelty
And vanished reverers

Blinded by an idle fancy
Treading on the periphery
Of disgrace
Closer to horror
Than to ecstasy

The vacant spaces
Are growing dimmer

Tangled in high lonesomeness
In your kingdom of grey.

It's my poison plain as day
Toxic eyes, mind corrosive with thoughts
X-ray vision, still so much unseen
A lead wall called emotion bypass radiation
A sirens voice angelic deception
Lead me to peril I've been there before
In search for my Golden Fleece
Jason and the Argonauts comfort me
A ship sailed aimless as the quest
For the hand that feeds has taken its toll
Still waters boil my blood
Waves in my veins to feel
This endless adventure
My life's ordeal

You meant so much to me,
You still mean the world to me.
After all these years,
After all those tears.
And all the pain you put me through.
Somehow I still smile,
Everytime I see you.
But you don't seem to care how I feel.
After all, the love you claimed to have for me wasn't real.
All those lies you had spoken,
And all those promises you've broken.
You took my heart, and threw it away.
It's not like it meant anything to you, anyway.
But I only wish someday,
You'll truly see.
How much you really meant to me.

Only in my dreams could I dream of a reality
A reality where this actually could be a you and me
But all the others they stare and laugh at me you see
I fall head over mole hills too easily
They say you're not worth it, but you are to me
Everyone deserves to be with someone, or is it only dreams
A dream to be dreaming in an alternate reality

The ache is deep inside. There, just where your knife resides. Didn't I beg for your mercy? My throat screamed raw from wailing for my surrender. A barbaric answer, I did receive. Your concealed dagger buried within my left side. I stumbled and fell to the ground and watched you walk away, with a whoosh of your dark cloak. My vision blurred within deaths grasp. Left to bleed on the cold granite. Pale-white stone smeared amber. Oh, God. That awful color.

I couldn't help it my love, even with your fervent betrayal lain open and exposed. My waning eyes traced each strand of your ebony hair as the manic winds whipped them around your unhinged-grin.

"What a vision you are, my god." I whispered my ****** words staining my teeth.

You glanced back then, with the greenest of green eyes. A swirling ball of chaos with a deadly smile. The gold of your curving helmet reflecting; what could have been; what should have been between us. You looked back at me, right before you vanished in your clouds of illusions and smoke.

"I worshiped you..." I spoke to the dissipating air where you stood.

My god. My king. My lover. My killer.

"--and I trusted you." An empty echo of words ringing truth within my ears.
My time is fading in this realm. I am merely a red smudge on the ground. I question myself as I drown, lost in my sea of blood.
'How did I ever come to trust a deity of mischief and lies?'