Will you be here
at the end of the year?
Will you hug me and wipe away that tear?
Save me from this constant fear?
shower me with love, safety and care
Please stay close and pull me near...

I want to write

about this boy who survived the fight

about this girl who did whats right

about two lovers who hold on tight

and fight their demons every night

about someone trying to reach the light

about a child who suppressed his fright

about survivors, warriors who had reached the highest height!

Your hands on my hips
lips to lips

Our clothes all over the place
Your kisses covering my face

All the moans you'll hear
Sounds that will shock your ear

You'll hear me scream your name
And you'll know its no longer a game

And when my body wraps around you
It will all come true

Those fantasies, those dreams you had?
They're real now , what shall I add?

"The day you'll leave?

I'll surely grieve

for I would have lost a dear person to my heart

yet the memory of you will never depart

you made life an absolute bliss

something, That now I will surely miss"

" But didn't you know dear?

that those eyes will tear?

Couldn't you guess, beautiful?

that this wont be merciful

pain equals pleasure

and to survive? you must be clever  "

Those years we spent apart?

taught me that I can never grow a new heart

the memory of you forever haunts me

it wont leave my soul

I'm nothing but a helpless

helpless *fool

She tried her best to make it through
She kept it all in, until she turned blue
Suffocation, exhaustion, and fearful tears
She tried to stay strong, to get through those years
Yet she missed her blade, blood and aid
She wanted to take out all her pain again
Help her blood flow though each and every vein

Yet it all went in vain
She lies there
Naked, dead on the ground
So safe and sound

Don’t give up she whispered
But deep down she knew she would
One day
She will fade
She will vanish
They might cry
But hey ! they would never die
They didn't care from the beginning
So why should she try ?
She's tired
She could never please them
She could never be like " them "
She's not normal
She knows
She knows ……

I love you
And I miss you

Come back
Shine your light

Its been dark lately
Its been harsh lately

You brought the life to me
But you took it back

You left ? I broke
You screamed ? I never spoke

So give me the reason ?
Why ? what did I do to you ?

My love was suffocating ?
That's nothing new

I gave you my whole heart
But some parts went missing from the start

You lied ? I cried
You ignored ? I paused

It  was then that I realized
That we were never meant to be from the  start !

she sits all alone in the cold
thinking of things that cannot be told
Remembering him and the pain of November
" Its over now , were at the end of December "

A tear falls from her eye
and she begins to cry
For she is feeling very lonely
and she actually misses his company


Memories of him flash through her mind
she hugs herself , for this is a pain she cannot hide
" I miss you " she whispers to the spirits lingering in the air


no answer

just pain mixed with
**fear

I was as fresh as the morning air

                           then you came and exposed me
                    
                                                                to your toxic poison
                                                                                                         *Toxic Air

tears well up in my eyes
as i look up at those skies

my heart breaks a hundred times
and i remember all those times
of happiness
with you

Yet you're no longer here
and i cant find you anywhere

but i know for sure
that all the pain i will endure
will be worth it

its a price i have to pay
in order to
forget

-G.E.G

Moving on was the hardest part
Because I believed that you didn't even leave

Next time ? I'll be sure to lock my heart
I'll make sure that my feelings will be blocked

I don't regret it
Yet it didn't make me happy for long

I can't deny that you were the reason behind my giggle and smile
Yet you didn't last long
And I went back to my depressing hole
I don't miss you
I miss those feelings
Security
Love
*Happiness

" He's here "
I whisper to myself

It's all lies though
Because we both know
That you won't come back again

You don't know how much I miss you
Yet I had to let you go

Life was perfect with you
Yet my  imperfections did show

I tried hiding how broken I am
Yet you uncovered the secrets

This heart I have ?
You owned

Yet .... You had to leave me and go

Yet .... I lost you

Now you're gone
I can't Move on

I miss your kiss
I miss those lips

I miss your love
it was enough

You broke my heart
and tore me apart

for i will forever miss
the sound of your voice
saying my name

it will Never  be the same

you were my world
and you will forever be  

the first boy i cried over
the first boy i lost

My first love in this world
although we didn't last long

- G.E.G