look at me, all scrubbed up and shiny
look at me, im so happy!
i go to church
i smile real pretty
i never talk back
i never act ******
im a good worker
a good friend, a good kid
im polite and responsible
i dont wish i was dead
im not crazy
not angry
not wild
not free
im not reckless
not silly
not colored
not me
ive been split open and emptied
fixed up by a shrink
im not anything special
dear god, ive been bleached!
i realized just how not me i am these days