Electronic tears and pain
Via the telephone line
Depression and open wounds
Bleeding into a strangers listening ear
Pooling as it gathers
And drains into his brain
Telephonic transmission
Of a soul
That flies by wire
Just looking for another soul
To touch with

the pills made me feel something when the boys didn't.

I'M SORRY* I'm *ANGRY
I'm SORRY for my ANGER
I'm so sorry...

I..... I can't help it right now
I can't help you
I can't help anyone

I want to BREAK walls
And PUNCH them
And KICK them down

I WANT TO BURN DOWN...

...my walls....

I have made a list
Of things to forget
I have not a wish
To repay these debts
Or be reminded
Of time that was spent
Together yet divided
No plan to repent
For immoral sins
To look over my
Regrets, nor take a spin
At the start and retry
To untie the wrongs
Inflicted by you
Feelings which you long
To have me undo
I just want a list
That will get me to
The end of the gist
A new point of view
That won’t include you
But here is the twist
Every time I inspect
My forget you sheet
I begin to reflect
On what I’d delete
Now an unfortunate
Reminding portrait
Of all the things I want to forget

First day if the first month of the 2015th
What is different?
If you ask me, nothing
And everything

Nothing is different
My wordrope still stuffed with clothes from the year just past;
Same people and same faces
Except they seem to wear this shmock or smile
It must be a new year resolution
Resolutions that are easily misplaced somewhere in everyday confusion

Everything is different
I have 365days to make that difference
Days of grace
I will look back
But not so to retract
But to see what I need to take out and what I need to put back.

Self asks
What will they give?
Don't seek to receive
Spread the doors of you ban and dish out.
Though life is sour
Like without a reason to live for
Suicide seems the only door
But then I just stumbled on this thought.

When you no longer see any good reason to live
Just live anyway you must
Else you may be taking another person's reason for life.

No matter how long I stay
No matter how long I breathe
This world will always stay the same
Corrupted and obscene
No matter who I love
No matter who loves me
This world will always stay the same
Corrupted and obscene
But if I leave this world tonight
Spread my wings and take flight
Maybe, just maybe
This world will finally be right