always holding the world on my back
and day by day it continues to stack
til I collapse
and hold no more
I close the door
on what once was
coming in towards newer stuff
but help me yield I’ve had enough
I’m pushing off and losing ground
yet still the answer has not been found
so I surround
my heart with comfort
so I don’t hurt
and feel the pain
I keep rationalizing to keep me sane
lying to myself
I should be crying to myself
but I’m oblivious to all else
and I’m pretending that’s not so
but truth’s shining through and already I know
…I know.

did you get what you wanted?
did you bring back the dead?
I am still haunted
by the things that you said

was it so great to have her in your bed?
and did it match up to the thoughts in your head?

you ****** me
you hurt me
you struck me
and burnt me

you got what you wanted
and I am still haunted
by you being split-hearted
and by feeling discarded

for you couldn’t let go
of someone behind you
and when she did find you
you let me know
that you being over her was all a show

you stood there
in front of me
a deep blue stare
depth of the sea

so I buried
my head in your chest
but I worried
you’d put your love to rest

so I held on
and wouldn’t let go
I held on
til there was no place to go

but I held on
til I hit a wall
and I held on
til there was no further to fall

but there was a moment
crystallized in time
there was a moment
engraved in my mind

it was your eyes
and your touch
your eyes
were too much

but for a moment
I kept staring
it was a moment
we were sharing

and I held on to that moment
with all my strength
but turns out that moment
was lacking in length

so the love passed me by
and I kept pulling you in to stay
but once that moment flew by
you kept pushing me away

I always thought I might
be weaker than you
but I wasn’t right
because that isn’t true

you can’t stand your ground
just can’t tell the truth
when she comes around
you are no longer the you that I knew

because you said
the romance was dead
and that she was just
in the back of your head
but why did I trust
and believe what you said
now I just feel very mislead

I should have seen
what was underneath
how could I let myself be
so extremely deceived

for I already knew
what a broken heart can do
and though I saw it in you
I turned my head
ignoring what was true
and believing what you said

so here’s the thing
about the things you think
the things you thought
what’s down the sink
and what is not
the friends you saw
who you got
who had to go
you loved them all
through highs and lows

but people slip
and then they’re gone
when you can’t keep grip
and there’s nothing to hold on
you’ve got to let go
because it’s how life goes
get past those
who aren’t worth the fight
because they weren’t right
and couldn’t be kept
although you will not forget
the times that were good
the lessons they taught you
but you really should
forget they forgot you

and it’s okay
because so few stay
there’s plenty more along the way
and yes it’s tough
life doesn’t stop
no matter how rough
alone or not
then things get better
they always do
nothing’s forever
but you always get through

you can hold me in
but can’t take me out
I’m somewhere within
but not what you’re about
I’ll give you my nightcall
****, you have my all
and that’s my downfall
cause’ you can only give me what’s been left
since you never retrieved the rest
the bits others hold
those who’s love for you grew old
they took the pieces of your heart
little bits of who you are
leaving you with all sorts of scars
and you never got back the parts
of your beautifully damaged heart
but I can see what you are
amazing like the moon and stars
but just so crazy far
and I need you undivided
all the way decided
on having me
and the mess I can be
totally sure
so I can feel secure
you just have to retrieve
the pieces that are scattered
so I know you won’t leave
and that we really matter