You're wrapped up in me.
Soft and sweet.
You pull me close around you.
Your body's heat.

You hold me tightly on the coldest of nights.
I bring you comfort through all your frights.

You use me up.
Every night.
I feel your fingers caress me so.
And the morning I don't want to let you go.

You smell so sweet.
The sound of your breath.
The warmth of your chest.
Your cheek I caress.

But you don't love me the most.
You'll bring her home tonight.

You'll worship her warmth.
On top of me.
My existence forgotten.
Even if momentarily.

The things I do for you go unnoticed.
The warmth I have for you, untouched.
I'm just a thing in your life of lust.
Of course I can never trust.

But tomorrow when you're lonely again...
You can rely on me, my friend.

11:59pm.
Every minute
Has been the same as before.
Until now:
Here you are again before me;
A masterpiece. Art. Flawless clockwork.
A free spirit, benevolent and fair.

12:00am.
You’re the clock that never stops ticking,
Your hands strike my heart at midnight
Just like before, and once again,
The next day starts, and
I’ve fallen again.

How could I not marvel at the wonders in your eyes?
The cogs that work your life?
The curiosity that pours from
Every word you convey, your expression,
Your compassion?

She’s back! They warned me:
The Timeless Piece. The World-Class Thief.
The Artist that paints stolen hearts,
Paintings that draw you in,
Trap you,
Make you gaze ‘til the end of time,
And in the end for committing this crime,
I’ll regret trying to make her mine.

12:01am.
Here we say, our goodbyes again,
“Until next time, let’s talk my friend.”
She walks away, and makes the bend.
Before I knew it,
I’m chasing again.

Every minute
Has been the same as before.
Until now.

Have a smoke.
A whiff of the flaming air
To burn the worries away and
Scorch your tears.

For 1 stick,
You don't have to worry about life;
It'll give your mind a chance to relax.

Let the ash crumble.
For every glow of your cigarette,
It'll scare away the demons
That plague your mind.

*Let me have my time please.
I just want to get away.

How do you invite change
When what brings you your joyful smile
Isn't there anymore?

Weaving this man's character
To the point of dependence;
As with its absence,
Reverts back to a boy
Crying,
Missing his family,
His opportunity
To grow with the familiar.

Now the darkness is calling to him,
*He answers with tears.

Penning a new rhyme with each limb,
A sonnet at every whim
Coiling around the canvas
Performing for me.

I feel you must understand that
With every movement of your body
onstage:
The body of a goddess,
Your relentless desire to win,
You're pulling me closer to you.

So let me read you; know that
The messages I send
Whilst deep in you
Taking your body in, naked,
Will be similar, whereby I fill
Your inside, forcing your breath out
Urging the moans.

You'll sense my mouth, my tongue,
My hands, my skin,
My grand entrance,
A sinful parade.

So dance for me. I'll excite you,
Inspire you,
*Until you call my name for an encore.

I've only been affected 
by anything other 
than affection

The only plan made
was to never have 
anything planned

I've only been 
perfect at living as 
an imperfection

The only thing I
understood was how 
much I didn't understand

©

The comedy that I emit,
The wit that I have honed,
By life's unforeseen disasters;
Made to bring everyone to happiness,
Blessing them with smiles and laughter,
Taking their troubles away from their minds
Even for a moment. That, I tell you:

"Don't you ever look this way!
Live, laugh and smile away!"

Whilst the merry band sings
Aloud, daydreaming and in orchestral fashion,
Admiring their backs from afar I trace
The footsteps to stand by their side;
A place that I can only dream of.

For every attempt at a smile I bless,
For every sliver of effort I take,
Every little moment counts
To pull me away from
Where I dwell:
Where the Cities crumble and fall,
Ghouls picking at the cracks
Of my wandering mind,
Sanguine thoughts,
Devoid of love,
Lacking life,
Loneliness,
Madness,
Anxiety,
Rage,
Sad,
Me,
1.

For a smile on your face,
Will put a smile on mine, and will
Pull me away from these apparitions
Clawing into my skin
For a brief moment.

**However.
Your happiness can't save me.