there's
A full mood,
perhaps a dull
twinkle scar,

hidden,
behind your dark-
brown,
cloud-covered
eyes,

skin suit hanging in the cupboard
skin suits strewn across the floor

skin suit given in the womb
skin suit

skin suit
skin suit fashionably gone.

I remember that night
he was drunk
and couldn't even think straight
He said he loved life
and everything about it
I wanted him to say
that he loved me
But he didn't
Instead I told him
that I loved him
because I knew
He wouldn't remember my words
And I was right
"What A Night!", he told me the next day
Smiling because he couldn't remember
He couldn't remember
that he breaks my heart everyday

I always thought
love was easy
until I met you.
I mean I liked you
And you liked me
All those kisses and smiles,
I knew they couldn't be fake
But when I told you
that I love you
You just stopped kissing me
You did not smile anymore
You said you were broken
and that I should not love you.
I knew you were wrong
because a broken person
could not make me feel
so **** complete
And I wanted to make you
feel complete too
But you did not let me
You did not let me love you

I did not want this
I did not want to catch feelings
for you
or smile every time you text
or wait for a message instead of sleep
or smile at you when you're not lookin'
or laugh about your stupid jokes
or look in your **** ordinary eyes
and feel like they're not ordinary at all.

One day
I want to find
This
Paradisum
That is your
Embrace.
One day
I will
Finally
Be able
To tell you
I love you

~Fin.

What if I feel like I'm falling
Into a pit of everlasting dark
There's nothings to light the way
What if my wings are clipped
And the now dead stars are blown out
What if I can't fly up
I want to go back

~Fin.