stop pretending no one loves you
stop pretending no one cares about you
you care
if you didn't care you wouldn't wake up
you wouldn't give your lungs the oxygen they need
give yourself credit
you are the one who throws the blades out of the window
and listens to your head and your thoughts
you are the one who deals with your pain
and manages to drag you out of bed for a shower
every so often
you are the one who goes into recovery
because you want to live
no one else stays up to the late hours drying your tears
and listening to every deep breath and sob

and you long for someone to
although you already have someone


you are enough

thank
you
for
showing
me
how
cruel
the
world
is.

if you ask me what i fear,
i will not say heights,
i will not say snakes,
i will not say spiders,

i will say you.
im scared of having my love for you hurt me,
**** me,
****** me.
im scared of drowning in tears that Y O U could cause.
im scared of you not caring anymore.
im scared of you forgetting.
forgetting all the tears,
all the laughter,
all the smiles,
all the cuddles,
everything.
im scared of you leaving me.
alone.
and scared.

so ask me again what i fear.
and i will say over and over again.
you.

i am afraid,
someone will not like me.
that someone will judge me.
that someone might look at me and think,
she makes my life miserable.