I know what I felt
and I know i've been shamed
since I don't deserve you
I must become of my dream.
A thought to include you
a bite to obtain
a soul too and through you
a heart to remain.
By God you are worthy
with God you might
a knowing untold
given the fight.

I know how I need you
I made to believe
I love and I need you
or so I had dreamed
you blessed and betrayed me
forgot or just maybe
let me hope of days
we'd be together forever and always.



Walking away
you saw your out
what was your purpose?
what was doubt?
God couldn't help us,
this is between you and me.
I could never hurt you,
so you tortured me.

I should of let you down.
but I don't wanna let you down.

tell me what it is you want
and trust me, i'll listen
if you jump, I jump
i'll make truth out of all your wishes

i can be anything
the shelves that hold your favorite books
the blanket that wraps around your skin
the mirror that tells you how you look

just tell me, and i'll be

i can be the warmth that you need,
a safe place to come home to
i can be the winter wind,
lifting you off your feet

i can be the sun that touches your body,
take me all in
i can be the light that guides you,
follow me

i can be here
and i can be yours
and if you let me,
together we could rule the world

Look at you, growing so fast.
I would not actually know though.
Because our time together only one day, did it last.

I know you're happy, with your mom, and your dad.
I hope that you get everything you wish for.
They were really great people so I'm sure it can't be bad.

One day, if you find me, I'll explain to you why.
Why you were given away, the day you were born.
Now, 5 years later, I sit on my tailgate and cry.
I think about all the days since, that have passed me by.
But I know it's for the better, for you and for I.

I'm frightened
I'm terrified
I'm absolutely unnerved.
Every moment
Every next heartbeat
I stand here
Clenching my phone.
Waiting for that next message back from you

Because that means you're still alive. And for a second I can breath.

Did you ever feel guilty at night for hurting me?