When the note is hit...it is a journey to unknown places!
With Each blow...With each movement of fingers on the flute...The Heart strayed emotionless of the surroundings!
Each Inhale and Exhale....the Pain dances with my Heart!
The Dance between Life and Death!
The Dance won't happen without
The Flute~~~~

There is Fear to stop one day from writing...
The Fear to let, that thing which keeps me Fighting, go...
The Fear to stop and turn my back to Everything..
To let the bleed fill my space with meaningless stillness...
It became the Battle of "Let"..
The Battle I don't know who are its Players...
I don't know its Rules...
I don't know the meaning...
"To Let....."

In my silence...
Demons of Logic are visiting me...
Haunting my cells with burning questions ...
Asking me to give up on my words about you...
To give up on the hope that still living in me...
To stay away from those burning emotions..
To let them be frozen...
To turn them to be
Demons!

I promised myself to margin my feelings...
I promised myself not to pay attention to signal my body is sending...
I promised to keep my pen away from here...
But with her...
I felt the blissing of being alive...
But with her...
I felt the beauty of being awkward and unable to express myself..
But with her...
I felt the blessing of her name...
But with her...
I'm in Silence to seize every minute being with her...
with her...
I felt Love..

Who is I'm fighting with!
Every morning, I'm asking myself:
why I woke up!
Where I'm heading to!
What I want to do!
Is it a fight? or I'm fed up with those questions!
I fought for many years inside and outside me!
Words are not understood inside me brain!
Words and feelings are expelled from my body!
Ease is not around me!
and it is still a fight!

Waiting for them there!
Fear came and shaken hand with me!
Fear came and asked:
Do they still remember who you are?
Do they still remember your face?
Do they still know you?
Do you still their father?
I'm still waiting for an answer from them!
I'm still waiting!