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455 · May 2016
Untitled
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I chose your string but you let me go
painted walls red with the distress
I wanted love but I gained myself
without you here, I see common sense
I've got a clear head and a soul to match
won't ever make a mistake like that again
I'll paint my lips red before your neck
I'll create a canvas from all the pain
you're a life lesson, I'm not a rebound
I am independent, I am strong at mind
I will progress to be who I am
with red lips before a broken heart
451 · Dec 2014
The Guilt And Regret
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How can I erase all my mistakes?
Can I take back every word?
All the lies and hearts I did break,
And ease those I disturbed?
My eyes all filled with regret,
As I lay alone in my bed.
447 · May 2015
Sobbing
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Tonight I had trouble sleeping,
Because my heart was a weeping.
I am not broken
Because of love,
I am broken
Because of the world.
446 · Feb 2017
4.15 am
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You said
" Tell me would you give us one more try
Cause, I've been thinking about you "

And I said
" No, give us time...let us rest"

Cause baby I ain't the place for you run to when things got you lonely.
445 · Apr 2015
Am Lost
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If you find one, please let me know what piece I've lost
435 · Oct 2014
Mirror
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I look into the mirror,
I see a reflection of me,
Bidding to be solid once more
By words I can't identify.

In my mind,
I stretch my arms,
I pull out my heart
In my tender warm hands.

Saying I'll survive,
I begin to stoop down to pick it up
With sadness in my eyes
And my shattered heart.

Solid mirror,
show a shattered spirit
With each I pick up,
I need to learn to let go.
432 · Nov 2016
Lost, not found.
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When you reach out to grasp something that you know is not there.
424 · Dec 2014
Quite Close To Wonderland
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I dream of a place,
Where theres a field of beautiful flowers,
Romantic music, colorful fabrics and
Bunny rabbits hopping around.
I dream of a place,
Where the sky is pink and orange,
the sound of a river
a crone caressing my hair,
The tulips drip a deepest red
The grass, lush and green.
In a silent lake with swans made of suns and tears
With swans made of snow and ashes.
The place which I dreamt of with passion
yet lived only once.

*I'm a dreamer that refuses to let go.
421 · Oct 2014
Hai
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Hai
Your 'Hai' aren't special to me anymore,
You may keep it,
Or go bore someone else with it.
420 · Feb 2015
Funny but Truth
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It's sad knowing your lover can never read your sadness.
409 · Dec 2014
Heartbreak
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It's a physical pain.
They laughed at her feelings,
Letting other people read her love out loud
Before you lit it to a fire.
Hidden in the crowd laughing,
But stuck as a shadow because
She is speechless by your sight.
Tears of fire, tears of wrath
Sadness eternal, a lonely path.
She told herself things
She never spoke out.
But now they're exposed
They're a frostfall of doubt.
404 · Dec 2014
December 7th, 1993
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Forever in my heart,
I never want to lose you my great friend,
From the moment of silence for everytime we spoke.

I love you,
But not in the way it's been rumored that the both of us tend to do
I love you because you're always there for me.

My every weakness,
And the problems I've been dealt,
You're the only one who truly understands me.

When things fell apart, I wanted to cry,
You tell me I'm strong enough, that I deserve to be happy,
And that you love me.

To the bestfriend,
No matter what call he would always answer,
Was nothing, but my mirror.

It's December 7th,
Happy 21st Birthday, buddy.
403 · Nov 2015
Say It Anyway
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Every love begins with a lot of hope, every love begins encase In gold
Oh you never fear what you never know will be
I remember times when you took my hand
You might as well of taken my every breath
I never felt a moment of regret till now.

I don’t wanna say what I’m gonna say, but I’m gonna say it anyway...
If you say sometimes things aren’t meant to be then I gotta go with what I feel
I gotta go with what is meant for me?
400 · Dec 2014
Hopes
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I missed you so much,
The only thing I did last night was cry.
So I smother the feelings and bury the hope,
In hopes that  we'll be okay.
400 · Apr 2015
Girl, Ugly
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I'm a girl who is so ugly
And how could a guy ever
Love me when an ugly girl
Like me can never love herself?
400 · May 2015
The 10pm Confession.
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I can’t even ******* write about my problems, I can’t do anything except let them stew inside my head and poison my brain cells one by one because their complexity is beyond me, in numbers as large as the stars in the sky and the shards of glass in my heart. Somethings never change, like the twisting feeling in my stomach as the clock moves closer to 3 am. I wish I knew how to stop it.
397 · Oct 2014
You Keep Me Oxygenated
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The rain it falls down up off the street
Lying on your single bed
And you wrapped your arms around me
When I'm in danger of getting so lost.

These thoughts will weigh me down
until I can't breathe
But except when I'm with you
I can finally breathe again.

I breathe you in
Because you are what I needed most.

My oxygen.
i love you boyfriend.  i really do.
396 · Nov 2014
Tell Me
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I need to know,

When your feelings start to fade,
Then where do I go?
393 · Oct 2014
His Words
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The words you spoke fell upon my ears
And rang throughout my mind,
Telling me my greatest asset is a calm mind
And in fourth dimension,
I'll be starting to learn myself.
390 · Jan 2015
A Walk In The City
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The sunlit pools dropping to the ground,
The pitter pattering.
Stalked the streets of the fair city,
Walked among strangers, talking of change.
Words have run deep for me today,
Its odd how leaving can make emotions surface
Some nostalgic and wistful, others better unspoken.
389 · Jul 2015
Thoughts in Heads
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I thought you were special,
But you're just an ordinary.

I thought you love me,
But you're just pretending.

I thought you were different,
But you're just the same.

I thought of you...always,
But you're busy looking for others.

I thought I had given everything,
But it was never enough.

I thought things would be fine,
But it wont be the same.

I thought my heart could heal,
But my heart seems to get faded.

I thought of leaving,
But I am too in love to let go.
387 · Aug 2015
Beauty
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I am more than just a number or an opinion. I am deeper than any single aspect of myself. I am not "pretty".

What has our society descended to
When "pretty" is the goal.
382 · Dec 2014
A Cold, Grey November Day
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The world should be colorful
Every single day
But ever since you left,
It is all shades of gray.
381 · Apr 2016
Father's love & concern.
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"Hey, it's going to be okay." He whispered into my ears.You stand there with a smile on your face.
One man in my life who would never leave. He has stayed around protecting,
& who is willing to give everything and even more to his daughters and his family.

I dont know if things would ever get better for me. I'm just a person who lives on the hope that tomorrow might bring and faith is all i need. Thank you dad, I love you.
380 · Nov 2015
A Hopeless Man
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He was hopeless,
He couldn't do anything right.

When she was in darkness, he offered her no light,
Instead he joined her.
When she was down, he didn't lift her up.
379 · Oct 2014
Quiet Night Thoughts
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I maybe need solitude,
Because when I'm alone,
I'm detached from obligations
I don’t need to put on a show,
I can hear my own thoughts
And feel what's my intuition is telling me.

But the truth is,
Throughout my life there will be times
When the world gets real quiet
And the only thing left is the beat of my own heart
So I’d better learn the sound of it,
Otherwise I can never understand what it’s telling me.

There is so much out there to experience and I want to do before its too late.
378 · Dec 2014
If
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If
If tomorrow I was gone,
Would you still feel for me?
If my anger burned you,
Would you forget me?
377 · Apr 2015
x without o
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It’s been a rough ride the last couple of days,
Including bumping into him this morning.

I wish…
I could run towards him and hugged him.
And if that weren’t enough,
I whispered into his ear,
“I missed you so much”.

It was an outcry for help,
An extended arm to be
Pulled out from a world of pain.

He said nothing.

Everything after that was just a blur,
And I don’t remember much.
Eventually we said “bye”
And we walked away from each other.
I never turned around.

Today still,
I have difficulties describing
What happened inside of me.
It was an emotional turmoil,
My stomach knotted.

*Somehow I got home and just fell into the bed.
Then something happened that pretty much saved me.
x/o
375 · Dec 2014
August 12, 2013
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What a glorious day...

The sky burns bright blue
puffy white clouds float
dreamily by
as little song birds
serenade the morn.
370 · Jan 2015
Inflicted
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I am at compacity with all these **** memories.
The words I say are not mine.
Knowing what I did,
I can't go on...
I've killed myself.
367 · Dec 2014
Dear My Love
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As my head lay against the pillows,
My eyes shut, to see you under the willow.
I dream, we danced the night away,
We lay under the stars,
We sit by the road and count the cars.
In my dreams, you and I are in love.
Even when I'm awake, I'm deeply in love.
The feelings for you that forever dance in my heart,
I will always love you.
I wish you knew that I miss you too much to be mad anymore, H
366 · Dec 2014
Cliché
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'Someone like you' by Adele,
Sounds so desperate.


I want someone new,
Not someone useless like you.
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I’m not here declaring my undying love for you.  
That feeling was long long gone.
I sought the kind of relationship you had promised
We would have before I ever knew if your words were true.

I miss us as I remember how it used to be.
I still hear your voice saying "it’s just a phase..."
And I’m still trying to believe you.
The beauty you felt for my smile must have
Faded from your eyes with each day.

I started looking for answers & for solutions
Towards things that were not broken.
I continue to put you first even though you'd made me last.

I wish I could've been enough.
I just want to set the record straight, i don’t want you back.  I am writing because, honestly, I have lots of things I am thankful for because of you.
I may or may not find my happily ever after, but I am hopeful.
364 · Dec 2014
Midnight Madness
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Your brain is suddenly exploding
with ideas and you can't
write them down fast enough,
because you're waste deep in
the night sky and
You see me all around the moon.
And all you did was think of me?



*Well, that was once upon a time ago...
362 · Oct 2014
No trust
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Here we go again.
We argue over the smallest thing,
With one whole misunderstanding,
Why can't you trust me, darling?
361 · Sep 2015
Ann
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Ann
You were the first person
I ever introduced myself
As Ann...
But you refused instead,
Prefered by the name Ain...
As you thought it's prettier.

You made me blushed since then...
To this one particular person who has a sweetest smile i've ever seen and who thinks i am different...in a good way.
361 · Apr 2015
Ugly Lies Beauty
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Everything you told me, why did it sound so beautiful
When the way you moved looked so ******* ugly?
360 · Dec 2014
The Birthday
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Tick-tock
Went the clock
The day I wanted to stop.
I am now rejecting
every expansion of my chest
and deafening my ears.

I don't feel old.
I don't feel wise.
I don't feel like I'm one year away from being an adult.
And I certainly don't feel old enough to die.
happy 21 years old there,babe.
354 · Sep 2015
The Dream
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I found you in my dream
You gave me butterflies.
They'd live in my chest,
And their wings would beat against my heart.
Nothing will ease this ache,
This pain, this blank space.

I woke up more empty.
Because the fact is,
I was never good enough to be your first choice.
353 · Nov 2015
Poet
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I am your poet.

I write your name on my heart and our memories on my pages.
I write about my mistakes and yours our past, present, supposed future;
and how I love you the most.
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Maybe someday,
You'll understand
Why I've spent my whole life
Trying to put it into words
And for once you let go
Of your fears and your ghosts
No proof, not much
But you saw enough
Even if it's just in your wildest dreams.
325 · Dec 2014
Never Quite Empty
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I am never quite empty.
No matter how hard I try,
There is always something inside.
Something evil, something that shouldn’t be there.
I hate it for being inside me.
I need to get it out,
Before it takes over my body.
I try my best to get rid of it,
Try to force it out of me.
But everything goes black...


The coldness against my face snaps me back to reality.
My eyes slowly open and focus on the hard white seat I am resting on.
I lift my head to look inside,
But see only the cool undisturbed water.
I lower my head and again feel the cold porcelain against my cheek.
I close my eyes,
Surrendering,
Knowing I will never be pure.
Never quite empty.
325 · Dec 2014
Wondering at 2 AM
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Sometimes I stifle
Under this silence.
Will I eventually hold your hand one day,
As we walk by the shore?
Will I call you mine and
Will you call me yours?
I wonder if you'll remember me
And the love for you I had.
Only we hold the answer
Love and although we may still be uncertain,
I long to be by your side and together,
We will defy the odds.
324 · Jan 2015
Last Shot
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So I gave up,
And I'm sorry.
I'm sorry I couldn't stay,
But I need to go away.
I tried to rise above but I kept sinking down.
316 · Dec 2014
Thank You
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The night you vowed you would never stop loving me.
The night that I was truly undoubtedly beautiful to you.
You were the closest thing I've felt to true love and definetly the closest to HEARTBREAK.
312 · Dec 2014
Shattered Trust
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Broken feelings
shattered trust,
Maybe
You never truly belong to me.
I love you,
But I hate liars.
So I just sit there and feel my heart
And it’s breaking into a million pieces.
310 · Dec 2014
I Wish
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I wish I was the person you go to
When you think too much.
309 · Sep 2014
Walid
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You crave me the power of the night skies,
Thank you.
308 · Mar 2015
I'm Sorry
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I can never be good enough for you.
306 · Oct 2014
Dear You
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What kind of feeling would I have,
Without you around to hold?
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