Home
Is where the heart is
Where warm arms embrace me
When glorious food filled the table
With beautiful wallpapers giving it life

Home is not only shelter
But it has all the love everyone needs
Comfy beds and childhood toys
Holding all the memories filled with wonders

Stepping out of my home
My eyes glow to the sight of
Sunkist skies on a Monday evening
Puffy clouds roam along with pigeons and larks
Clean pavement with nothing but dry leaves dancing
Old and new cars and an outgrown mango tree
I enjoyed every scent around my home.

When the day falls into darkness,
Shimmering stars shine upon me.
As if, I was the only one admiring their beauty
Walking beneath them is an honor
With every light steps,
The stars and moon watch over me,
Never leaving my side...like family

Now that I am no longer home,
Happiness has disappeared
Creases on my forehead increase
Being a vulnerable person out in the world
I became an easy prey, target
To be the one to absorb all the negativity
Possessed by city-born humans

Love is not around anymore,
Stars and moon shy away from the skies
Hidden behind the grey crowd
Filling humans' lungs
And causing disease
Adding on sadness and despair

I miss home.
Where love originally came from.

The world we live in is cruel
The friends we love are dangerous
The family we known is taking us for granted
The health we have is turning their backs

Strangers greet but judge
Friends sweet talk but badmouth
Family gives but ignores
Health smiles at you but back stabs

And, it begins...

Strangers throw ***** glances
Friends give poisonous flowers
Family say goodbye
Health kills slowly

Eventually...

Strangers leave
Friends leave
Family leaves
Health leaves

All that's left
Is a body with an empty soul

White, pastel colors
Red carpet in the chapel
Meeting friends and family
And some strangers we mingle

Everyone be seated
It is about to begin
The ***** starts to play
As the bride walks in

The groom stood up smart
And waited for her hand
The groom was told by her father
To take care of this beauty till the very end

The groom and bride said 'I do'
Tears were shed to those attended
Applause were loud to show their support
Wishes of congrats to the new pair were heard

The bride gave me a hug
So does the groom with a peck and smile
They expressed their gratitude towards me
For the love was bonded over time

I was happy yet a little upset
As he loved me so much, but
For his love will be shared
With a new sister of wed

She was there
Listening to your rants
She was there
Comforting you when you cry
She was there
When you lose hope
She was there
Even when you ask her to leave
She was there
When you flirt with other girls
She was there
Keeping the tears and pain to herself.

He was there
Listening to your complains about peers
He was there
Lending his shoulder when you cry
He was there
When you can no longer fight
He was there
When you screamed at him
He was there
When you hang out with your guy best friends
He was there
Always being patient

Open your eyes
To who treats you right
One day, they will leave
And never come back.

Dancing unicorns and colourful butterflies
Crackers of sweet honey and bubblegum flavour
Chocolate streams and ice-cream trees
Carousel of cupcakes and bacon hams

Glitters and sparkles rained down on little elves
Mermaids and fairies grew magical plants and food
Everything is so beautiful and other-worldly
From afar, it looks like a fun fair heaven.

I sat at the top of the hill watching with ease
Enjoying the whistling wind under the warm moonlight
Biting a mouthful of bread and butter
"I want to be there" I mouthed

I extended my arm towards them with a hopeful wish
The fairies pranced towards me and gathered
They took my hand and put it towards my heart
With a whisper they said close to my ear

" Love and accept yourself first. Once you do, your vision will be clearer. It's not all fairy dust and roses"

And I realise. I glanced at that wonderful place again.
Fairies showed me the other side of the coin
The gold place slowly turned dark, grey and gloomy
Still every being is happy but with a tragic story carved in them

I see it now.
I see.

When we're 6,
We can't wait to enjoy school life

When we're 12,
We can't wait to grow up

When we're 16,
We can't wait to drive

When we're 21,
We can't wait to get wasted

When we're 25,
We can't wait to get married

When we're 30,
We can't wait to climb higher in career

When we're 40,
We can't wait to travel the world

When we're 50,
We can't wait to retire

When we're 70,
We can't wait to have great-grandchildren

When we're 90,
We just wish we were young again
And enjoy life all over again

Listen
The meaning of the song
The feelings in the song
The words of the song
It describes me

Listen
The voices of angels
The image of angels
The beauty of the angels
I admire them

Listen
The heartbeats to see them
The nervous system breaks to see them
The head swings to see them
Their winks melt me to the core

You wake up
Do you feel jittery?
Panic runs through your nerves
Tired and restless
Heart pumping wildly
8 hours, 10 hours, 12 hours sleep
Still feeling choked by a headache
Numbness filled the back of your mind
Watery eyes from fatigue

Time for work

Getting called in
Do you feel the anxiousness?
The tension in the air
Sweaty palms and feet
As you drag yourself in

You're in
Do you feel calm?
Empty and a lil nervous
The thought of 'I dont give a ****'
You knew where this is going

He screamed
Do you feel upset and angry?
With the demeaning insults
Threats after threats
And you sat there silently
Allowing him to

You left
How do you feel?
Helpless
Agitated
Powerless
Breathe...

Your day begins
Do you feel better?
Work after work after work
Piling up like hills so high
Jittery feelings return

Home
Do you feel dead?
Exhausted and drowned with work
It does not stop here
Unfinished business to continue
Type away with blank stares

Crash.
Your day starts again.

Once a time we met
You were there smiling charmingly
Keeping your eyes away
I stood unnoticeable
I watched as you speak
As you laugh and your eyes sparkle
That charming smile I'd say!

Once a time we became friends
I enjoy teasing you, fighting with you
You never knew
Nevertheless, you treated me well
I stood frozen
I watched as you smile
As you talked with full interest
That charming look that I'd say!

Once a time we got together
We cuddled, laughed and talked
We hugged, kissed and smiled
I stood speechless
I watched your face lighten
As you looked at me with love
That warm love I'd say!

Once a time we fought
We shouted, yelled and argued
We throw tantrums with ego
I stood heartbroken
I watched your angry face
That fear I'd never forget
That person I'll always love..

I walked into the dark forest willingly
My heart was numb, broken and weeping
Head filled with agonizing thoughts and negativity
Yet, I continue strutting like it was nothing

Slapped by twigs, pierced by sharp rocks
As I walked deeper into the forest
I bleed and healed with visible marks
It doesn't hurt, thus I need no rest

The journey continued and I saw a shadow
We draw close and I stepped back with caution
From the corner of my eye I know
That this shadow is no simpleton
Nevertheless I tried to play along with this foe

Shadow feeds sweet seeds of poison that the trees believe
And everything was masked by a mountain of lies
And that I was continuously hit by a branch, root, and a leaf
I kept falling over till my mind, soul and spirit dies

I lay on the ground motionless and broken
Wondering if I should give darkness a second chance
It's a game of 1000 vs 1
A game full of prejudice, unjust and angst

I stood up and persistently hold my broken pieces together
Tumbling, falling and plunging into casualties
Still I positioned confidently like no other
I safely walked away from the evil shadow beast

As I smile with freedom, I was greeted with warmth
In this dark forest I nestled with tender fairies
Soon darkness came with another shadow like death
Full speed headshot knocking you off your knees

Unwelcomed, I escaped and ran for my life
Exhausted and in pain I saw my refuge drawing close
A ball of light getting brighter as I run with time
Squinting as I pushed myself into that brilliant safe house

Out of the dark, I found myself
Older and wiser with wonder scars
Hopping forward like a happy elf
Opening another chapter without wars

Pedestrians hustling in and out of the buildings
Cyclists, motorists, drivers rushing with time
I, standing in the middle of the busy street
Watching them as they go

I imagined various colours within each passerby
And identify the colors of their soul
Red, purple, blue, orange, gold, silver
What are the vibes? What do they mean?

Does red mean someone is upset, angry or frustrated?
Does blue mean someone is sad, depressed or sick?
Does gold mean someone who is kind, caring or loving?
Does green mean someone who is calm, patient or free?

I wish I can read the signs.

I was left in darkness
One after another - catastrophe
As I wished for life's end

Confidence was lost
Trust was lost
Gloomy as it was
The smile was lost

Until the day
He walked into my life
Bringing a little light
Day after day
Pushing me to strive

I am not alone
when I thought I was
I am smiling
when I thought I can't
I learn to love again
when I thought I couldn't

He saved me from the pit of despair
He loves me for who and what I am
He keeps up with my temper
He, as well, mold me into a better person

He is my life now
And hopefully, forever

Wicked, as was said
Demeaning as she uttered
Insulting as she spoke
Disrespectful as she claimed us to be

Wicked, she may not be
Panicky is her personality
Yelling as much as day
Agreeing to everything that was said

Wicked, she seemed to be
Words can't describe her
Actions can't move her
Sturdy as she always has been

Wicked, she wouldn't want to be
Emotional for her own reasons
Sensitive in her own ways
Neglecting the circle around her

It's a pity

Work
Drains your energy
Leaves you restless
Keeps you awake

Work
Stays with you
Chases away life
Putting you down

Work
Why are we doing it?
Why are we not happy?
Why are we lost?

Work
Gives satisfaction
Gives happiness

If you find the right one