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I gave you my heart
(I love you - I said)

You put it in a freezer
"I may or may not need, it depends" - you said

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"okay"
(I love you - I said)

but things worked out with HIM

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You gave me my heart back
"Unlike Han Solo...
I don't think it survived
the freezing process - sorry" - you said

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"okay"
(I love you - I said)

♥♥


My heart actually did survive
but it barely beats now

- full of ice damage -
necrosis

"♥"

it’s unsettling how many people i’ve had to beg to forget me, lately. how many i’ve tried to convince that i really am as insignificant as a stranger you made eye contact with for a moment at the stoplight. for so long i was begging so many people to stay, to keep holding onto me, even if it wasn’t in their best interest. all i wanted was to be selfishly adored. now all i want is to be left alone.

Evening breeze,
Everyone is now at peace,
Your name popped,
My heart suddenly stopped.

I miss you,
I really do,
I force myself to be busy,
But my mind is going crazy.

You're my happiness,
I always forget what is stress,
But now smiles turn to frowns,
Mind cries and heart drowns,

Maybe it's meant to be,
Maybe we're too blinded to see.
I'm the guitar and you're the strings,
Without you i'll be a **useless thing.

You kissed me once, and it was as if the whole universe stood still.
The nights our beings ended up in the same room, inadvertently drawn closer to each other though the dawning of midnight had long passed.
Breaths heavy with the lingering scent of whatever alcohol of choice we drank down through out the evening as we occupied the same space.

I, constantly going over in my head how I could possibly bring your eyes to mine.
Seductively blinking under tired, intoxicated eyelids.
Our friends floated in and out of the surrounding space, dancing around us until we were left just with each other.

It's been quite a few years now, but we've occupied the same space since then.
Once in a while I find myself wondering if you too remember those moments, and then I laugh cause you were drunk and I was stupid.

I took your soul and you burned a hole in mine
You stole my heart and placed it to the side
I threw away all the memories you left behind
It's all just racing through my mind
All those memories wasted nothing but time
There was never a reason to stay and watch the sun die
We just wasted our life trying to see the moon shine
Only to lighten whatever hope we held in hands intertwined

You couldn't even hold me while I cried
Only gave me a look saying I'm sorry that I lied
You tore apart every inch of my insides
My body was begging to just lay down a die
A stranger at the bar bought me a drink and said baby don't worry all you have to do is try

So I gave you another piece of my heart, a second time
You said that life was just a lie and all you could think about was my dark grey eyes
This time your cried

And I was the one who watched you die,
Maybe in satisfaction or maybe in pride.