In the end
I convinced myself
I wasn't worth the tears
~
So instead of crying
I smiled
~
And fooled them all

[Ive been smoking a lot
and im starting to doubt
if im breathing you in
or smoking you out]

most nights I miss you
but im no longer sure
if the pain that I feel
can ever be cured

its hard to explain what its like to be numb
but its poisoned my mind
like the smoke in my lungs

now my burdens are heavy
they're breaking my bones
its weighing me down
to know im alone

but this sadness is comfortable
and I know what to do
ill collapse into it
like I collapsed into you

Ill let it consume me
and the thoughts in my head
to try and forget
the words that you said

but no matter hard I try
to wash you away
I see smudges of you
on me everyday

[and now I lay like you once did in my bed-
I lie like you
Im lost in your head]

What's inside your heart,
Is a secret between you and God,
You hide your flaws from the world,
By wearing a mask of peace and love ,
Waiting to be understood by someone,
No one knows If you are crying,
But you can't hide it from yourself,
flaws  are  meant  to  make  you  perf­ect ,
God wants you to throw the mask away,
To let them see the real  you ,
Because for your God you are Perfect .

Stamping his heart
with love and a kiss.
Signing his neck with
her tongue and a couple
of licks. Writing poetry
on his flesh with little
vampire bites. That's
how she writes down
her signature on the love
of her life's smooth
delicate coffee coloured
skin* ~

There is a girl
And I cant simply understand
Why she is so sad

Her eyes are so simple
Yet so full or sorrow
I wish she could see that today
Or tomorrow

I would give her the world
And possibly more
For her to be happy
Once more

Just remember the sun still shines
The moon still appears
There is nothing to worry about
Darling please, don't shed a tear.
b.l