darling they've found the body
curled up among the leaves
echoing the quiet decay
savoring the dying day

darling they've found the body
crying under the porch
choking on the insects
still she swallows more

pull out the nails
unwrap the barbed wire
cut the noose
pull out the nails
unwrap the barbed wire
cut the noose

darling they've found the body
on you're side on the bed
shes wearing white sheets
there are no eyes in her head

darling they've found the body
sitting in your place
talking with your voice
wearing half your face

pull out the nails
unwrap the barbed wire
cut the noose
pull out the nails
unwrap the barbed wire
cut the noose

darling they've found the body
her hands are around your throat
settling into indents
she put there long ago

darling they've found the body
they dig her up
wherever we go

My world is filled with strangers.
People without last names.
Intense closeness and then nothing.
Passing through without a trace.
I don't mind but it all feels paper thin.
I want something solid to stand on.

Never owe anyone money ever, borrow nothing, take no favours.

Do not expect unconditional love from anything but a dog, no one will love you unconditionally. Life isn't a fairy tale.

Even your oldest friends will disappear when you need them most.

You love your family but that doesn't mean you should trust them.

Do not trust people.

Take at least one self defence class, people will hurt you, people will want your skin enough to crawl inside and take it from you.

Give favours you can afford to give without getting something back.

Expect nothing from others.

Take care of yourself, no matter what's happening try to take care of yourself.

Do not share your feelings while they are most intense.

Hate less, please please hate less.

Cut off any malignant people in your life.

Live with detachment, let nothing touch you.

Only tell people you love them if it doesn't matter when they don't say it back.

Do not expect people to care for you or comfort you, if it happens on its own savour every last second.

family
they are here
there is a hope that hangs in the air
will he show
will he remember my face
this man of empty promises
this man so worn down
this man so beaten down
this man who says "Katie, my Katie I remember when you were this small"
this man is my grandfather
this man I have not seen in six years
this man with skin like leather
this man with sunken eyes
this man with scars on his hands and in his mind

I want to kiss you
I want to breathe you in
I want to **** you far down into my lungs and absorb you like smoke
I want to exhale you like a sigh

I wake up in his arms
I barely remember his name
But he’s one of the sweetest I’ve ever been with
When I go to wake him he pulls me close and asks for ten more minutes
I love the way he touches me
The soft trailing of his fingers on my spine
His whisper of a kiss on my shoulder
Such intimate affection between us
I’ve only known him for a few hours
And I don’t know if I’ll see him again
But for now I’ll just breathe this moment in and soak up these gentle kisses