My life I owe to all of you
You've kept me alive
Were my strength for so long
Were the bright side of life

This peace I've achieve thanks to you
You kept the sinister thoughts at bay
You each gave me hope
And were the light at the of the tunnel

This victory over the war inside me
Won because you each stood by my side
All of you kept me latched to humanity
You became my family
Our chains of friendship forged  

These thanks I give, they're for you
You kept me from fully shattering
Mending falling pieces
Became the definition of my life
The rainbow after the hurricane

Politeness has no place in creativity. It's a barrier that limits your horizon. When you write, write for you, and only you. Don't think of others, just let your emotions overtake you and take control. Let them become art.

I won't speak out of term
This pain sealed within I will hide
Just to make you happy, just to keep the peace

I will not show weakness
These tears  I shed, I'll hide from the world
This I do to show you strength, to appease you

I will not rebel
This poet and artist will remain to the shadows, dormant from all
Just to not catch your sinister eyes
Just to not be hated

I will not be happy
This homosexual will remain dead
Just to not cease to exist
Just to be noticed

This life I will not cherish
I'll seal the casket to fall asleep
Just to escape the searing pain that you give
Just to at atast, obtain peace

My life is sometimes difficult and at times hell. There are people in my life that want me to give up. That make my life miserable. But my pride is bigger than my desire to give up. I refuse to give up. To be weak and let the world win. I will continue to fight, continue to struggle. So that one day I can smile with ease; have a smile that's real. Lose the pain inside, and shine as bright as my passion.

Feel this cold embrace
let it surround you
At the end of the day you have nothing
No use om breathing on
You've lost the fight
Breaking down until you snap,
Wish to stop  the shattering?
Just accept this freezing embrace
Cold steel can surely split the pain
If not, at least purge your soul

My love
I gave all to you
I hoped and prayed for the best

Yet you've failed me
With greed and pride
You stand against all I loved
You chose yourself

You forgot my sacrifices
All that was given for you
A cancerous tumor

You were loved
You were cherished
But ultimately you were a disease

I'm not motivated at all. I once held high aspirations, dreams unlike most, fought to be strong, to hold my pride and marvel at my strength, to accomplish what most can't. Yet I grew weary. It's a constant battle. If not my own, the others and the world's. Constant trumoil, with little true accomplishments. Watching as it all begins to rot, knowing that changing that is near to impossible. For it is these thoughts, that call for revolution, for change, for justice, true unbiased justice. To be born in a world where ignorance gets you killed and ridiculed, yet no matter what, we remain with some sort of blindfold, ignorant forevermore. To unveil it and see with true eyes, to see the depressing reality, why it crushes what little hope I held for humanity. Dimmed it down to a low flickering flame. I rather leave the blindfold, even if I can see through it, at least it'll block some of reality away. Because no one truly lives in it anymore. They all hide with their "justified" thoughts. Believing only their way is correct. That any other path will lead to self destruction. Not trying to seek other roads, to detach themselves and see life for what it is. Instead they aim to create life what the wish for it to be. With many individuals doing this, reality isn't real. But a mirage. And the battle isn't to bring peace or make things right, but to have their mirage be the strongest, to make it reality. So to hell with it. Let my soul slumber for now, to heal itself from what it's seen. The good isn't enough. Too much hate and darkness pollutes life. When my hide is thicker, when my hold on his mirage is stronger, I will aim to disperse it, to clear the fog. But what if at the end, my reality is nothing but my own mirage? One too weak to bring joy?

Roaming these empty hallways
With dead eyes I see nothing of interest
Roaming from room to room
I see no light to lead me through the dark

It's a blind stumble
There's no joy
And all I see are baren walls
As I continue on walking

I keep on searching with half opened eyes
Partly wishing to find some meaning in all the emptiness
Half hoping to find some light to bring back color to this dull life

Cliché isn't it
That it was you who sparked some life in me
With a simple smile
Simply acknowledging me
It gave my life a little bit of meaning

So I continue walking through these empty hallways alongside you
The barren walls seem to have gotten some color
The hallways don't seem as dark
The lights seem to be working again

Then others came
More beings who spurred something deep within
Something absolutely human
It itself was light
And it interested me
A difference from the same dark
So I continued walking alongside my new companions

Together we all walked
No longer did I search in empty rooms
Or gazed through broken windows
Because I somehow managed to leave it all behind when I walked through the door that led to the outside world
To the life full of color
Full of new sounds and smells
To a brand new world full of wonder and interest

But what's most interesting
Is what led me to this world
The friends who brought me here
Who were the light amongst the bland
And the friend who started it all
So I'll explore this new world with him and the others
To see what else I might find of interest
To see what else might give my life meaning

Can you see them?
The cracks, they are growing
How long before I shatter?

I'm falling to pieces, do I hide it well?
With dark circles and bags beneath my eyes
Can I make it through another day on my feet

So paranoid and cold as usual
Does no one see the truth?
With so many lies, how long can I keep this act up

I'm breaking from the inside out
On a path of self-destruction
Will I open up to stop the breaking, for self-preservation?

These shields are rotting,
My defenses falling
Will anyone strike mow that I'm so vulnerable?

What's happening to me?  
I thought I was stronger but my mind betrays me,
My scars shout in vengeance

I'm falling, breaking down
Finally reached my end
Is this where my story ends?

You dig them up from the grave, you send them to break my resolution
You always bring on the streams of pain

Never once cared to show love
You're a rusted blade that digs deeper with every insult

You bring down my masks
Show the true face behind the smiles the laughs
Breaking down my walls is what you do

Never once did show pride in me
You cut through the stitches
Reach the veins to slice them all

You make me back to that little boy who wanted love
******* me down
You take my strength away is what you do

Always bringing rage in the end, its all been about you
As you burn deeper into my bone your thirst rises

Rage is what you instill in me, leaving behind a shadow of resentment
You put out the fire which I worked so hard to light up is what you do

Never bringing hope, always at the bottom  of the darkness
You're just another rusted blade
Another cursed scar

I roamed and lived on with hope that I would be saved
Then pitch black ink stained my heart
And the light that kept me smiling was lost for good

I grew faster than my body
My soul has wrinkles and chains that tie it down
I escaped one prison just to be incarcerated in another
My dim dull eyes became darker

I used to cry myself to sleep once I could no longer smile
And drowned in my own blood just so that I could sleep without pain
Time passed and the oceans all dried
With sliver mistakes staining my body
I continue on this journey

My demons ruled my life
Fear was a constant treat
With a bruised and ****** cry I'd burned in the rage that soon followed
I crumbled into ashes of grief
From the ashes I was resurrected with a second chance at life

I was weak, I was glass
I could take a few hard hits before I cracked and shattered into insignificant shards
With my second life though, I was reborn with a body of ice
I became cold and strong
With this strength I conquered my demons and paved a new road

I was scared and broken, small and fragile
Now I'm dark and powerful
With a soul that's lived a thousand years
I marched prepared for battle

I used to dream of my savior
My knight that would save me from the dark
The one who would end all the hurt
But I had no savior, no one came
I became my own salvation
I'm all that I have, all that I can trust

Once, I had a heart
But then my mind was opened and my heart broken
The angelic boy of the past is now the warrior of today

I used to be weak and trust in my non-existing savior
Now I'm strong and a lone warrior
I once loved and hoped
Now I'm dead inside and my only salivation

These silver lines that marr my skin aren't a sign of weakness
They are the marks left from my battles
They show my struggle
These scars that cover my body show that I never gave up
My scars are just reminders of my struggle to live
And to never lose hope

I hide my soul in these crowded hallways
I smile and wear my mask.
You see me smiling and laughing
A result of the suppressed hurt inside.

I bury my heart in these heavy textbooks
Forget my scars as the bell rings;
Forget the self-loathing that still burns my wrists.

I escape reality with each friend I greet
But the solitude returns when the door closes as the final bell rings.

I leave myself locked in classrooms
Throw the key under essays and calculus assignments
Smile as my final tears of the day shimmer unseen by those who pass.

Through the heart it goes
Through the soul does it hurt

The secret kept in
The pain it holds
The lies the dark mind spews

In love was this foul act committed
And through guilt will it burn the very being

Will he speak?
Will he brand himself?
Or will he remain in silence till death?

Let god know of his cowardice
Of his malevolent character
Integrity?
Not here with this man who holds the truth
The power, the secret that is vital as it is painful

May god show no pity on his soul
He'll burn in hell
Re-love the very moment that at its time was heaven, but now is the very hell

His secret,
Their dark act,
Her end,
My secret

The fight has left me
Can't take anymore
Too much pain to bear

Cornered now, whimpering to the shadows
What I've succumb to
A mere shadows of the fighter who I used to be

Ready to give up
Waiting for the next blow
Just end it all

The hope I had is gone along with my pride and strength
I've been stripped of everything that defines me
I have no power
I'm just another broken child

Hang the noose,
Tighten the chains,
Doesn't matter
Lacerate my skin,
Burn my soul,
Just end it all
I'm already broken
I just wish for the peace after death's eternal sleep

Needle pierced hide
A necessary pain to stand whole
As the Thread passes through my skin,
holding together the bruised, ******, falling pieces
A single drop of blood drops to stain the ground

These dark tendrils claw at my feet
They demand retribution
They split the skin so that the Red Sea may flow
But the stitches close the abyss, saving the crimson elixir of life

A clear tear drop stains my mask, cracking it
As each glass shard of lies falls, the face beneath is revealed
A barren wasteland eroded from the waterworks
And dull dull black orbs lay there staring straight ahead
With a sliver of light in the sea of black

The silver scars glow with anger,
demanding to be let free and opened for the Red Sea
But the stitches keep them closed and keep me alive

Battle scars and Thread dominate my body
The silver lines, the signs of a great battle
The zig zags of the  thread, a sign of the will to live

I'm broken, bleeding, and marred
Held together with a thin silver Thread
A silver Thread of hope

I may be hideous and deformed from the damage done
But my silver stitching keeps me together and going
For the day when I'll be strong enough to not rely on my silver Thread
When I too, will be beautiful
Like my silver Threads of hope
The silver Threads of hope that have kept me alive

Thousand of words within a single drink
The laughs, the yells, the screams, the cries

Tight lip while in the uniform
Wear it right, bark right
Do not disgrace all that which is

We are the protectors
The guardians
The warriors of the land

Yet who will save us?
Who will combat the darkness?
Who will defeat the demons within?

Seeking,
Pleading,
Begging for salvation
We're worthless in the end

Pawns that couldn't even fulfill their duty
To be tossed aside
When the king needs saving
The rook will rise
The knights will roar
And the queen will awake

With a single drink we'll be locked away
With a single drink will we be mourned
With a single drink will we fulfill our duties

I welcomed the pain
Shrouded myself in self loathing
I forged my armor in the coals of my anger
Soaked my blade in a well of tears

I made my suffering my power
Found strength in being broken

Fighting through,
I never backed down,
Always kept pushing
Bearing my teeth to all who stood in my way

But when there's no one left to fight,
How can I cling onto my pain?
The one thing that made me strong
Will eventually dissipate
And all that'll be left, is to find strength elsewhere

Lost myself, fell from once mighty throne
Became a fragile glass boy
Yet I never gave up
Kept on fighting
Even if in the end I made mistakes

Always hidden, mysteries that held power
Lost it all as my castle crumbled
I became human
Yet I still fought this war
Belligerent as ever, I strove to win
Although I only ended losing almost all that I love

Always smirking, confidence on display
All faded away
As the truth arose
It was all fake, lies I made to stay strong,
Still cried when I accepted the truth
Still stood as tall as possible,
Awaiting the next challenge,
Even though I failed

Once feared and hated,
Others began to sympathize when they learn of my silver scars,
The weakness was on display
And I began to seek help
Let those in who loved me
Put each broken glass back together
Still cracked, but strong enough to stay together

This rage echos through your inner prison
The fire seeps through the cracks
And the walls turn crimson black

To escape life
Allow the vibrations to make your ears bleed
Let the beats drown reality away
The waves and lyrics will drift away, away, far away
From the pain

You may paint your heart away
Depict your sorrow on a canvas
But is that enough?
Will the shadows capture your tears?
Does the brush relieve you of the insults

Cold apathy
When you no longer care
The burden's become too much
So you let it fall
And walk away from the crashing chaos

You can sing away the days
Your voice won't be heard
Your words will go unnoticed
The melody of the broken thrown to the winds

The chains cold as blades
They wrap around the shards
To hold together what little isn't tainted

You can pray for an end,
But when you alone can't continue fighting
What is left?
Empty canvases
Silent days
Meaningless music

A life not worth living
That's what's left

Another secret to keep, another lie that's born. Shh, I can't tell, the dark deed lies in the bleeding words, in the riddles, in the depths of my sick twisted mind. Come and try, you cannot pry it out of my lips; I wont allow it. My peace of mind depends on this one secret, just one dark deed. It repeats its ****** pattern, only this is a puzzle that none can solve, none but me.

I'm a fraud
A liar
An utter mess

I keep on walking, smiling, trying
Yet to what end is this all for?

Hope, dreams, and aspirations are of no worth to those dead inside
It doesn't matter how hard one tries, that twinkle will never return to our eyes

In our solitude are we with kindred souls
Through tears, we smile
For the remembrance of our precious beat do we trudge on

I'm not alone in my suffrage
Though not my intent, do the lies spout
For those who still have that twinkle
Whom still have the beat of life within
For the love that tethers me to them

Such are the lies told;
Of excitement for the next dawn
Of aspirations for the future
Of hope for tomorrow

My eyes are witness to many things,
Good and bad, I've seen it all
The darkness and evil of humanity,
I've witnessed it
But also the raw love and sweet touch of loved ones

I've experienced many things
I've felt the cold balde, the burning split it brings
The sweet release that soon follows
As well as the comfort of a good friend
The hug of someone who cares,
The warmth of someone who loves

I've hid many things
I'm a vault locked with the secrets people have entrusted me with
But their pain and dark deeds are not all I hold inside
I also hide my own agony and darkness from the public's view
I fear eyes like mine that'll see my crippled self
So I lock away all my Flaws

I've worn this mask for far too long
Who I am, too hard too much to describe
I'm a walking paradox
Strong, protective, caring, perfect from the outside
Inside I crack and fall into the abyss of the past that won't let me go

Behind the mask I've held back my true self
So now the mask falls
And I reveal the vulnerability of who I truly am;

I cry at night, hidden from all
I wipe the tears and mask the trail with smiles and a fake confidence
The darkness cripples me
It scares me,
The darkness shows me side of who I am that I fear
But I revel in it in front of others to not be attacked
I show others that I'm a warrior
When in fact there's an agony so raw that it burns me to the core
I'm in so much pain that it blinds me
Paralyzed with the realization that I'm drowning
And each day the battle just gets worse
But no one knows,
Because the mask was on to hide all the ugly
But now, my mask falls
It plummets down to hell
And reveals someone new to your eyes
Someone locked away for far too long
What is it now, that you think of me?

The meaning to life is simply to reproduce our own species and ensure our survival. But as human beings, we are intelligent enough to see this and this depresses us so we search for a deeper meaning, a meaning that only those with thoughts could understand, aka humans. And some believe that the meaning of life is to find happiness, to live it to the fullest, to find love. They do this just to not accept the depressing reality. Life is depressing, there's no doubt about it but my view on it is that we cling to life a little while longer, searching for that something that makes life worth it, that something that interests us and makes us wanna be alive. Whether that be money, love, *** or Peace, we search for it to bring some meaning into our lives. Because without that something, we'd realize how tedious our lives truly are. I live not because I want to, but because I'm waiting for that something special to catch my eyes

Don't need excuses so stop
I'm used to disappointment
Frowning is the norm

Stop trying to justify yourself
It won't change the fact of the matter
My fire was meant to dim

Quit playing games
I know I've already lost
My eyes were never meant to shine

I've fallen into the bottom of my heart
It's so cold and lonely here
Yet the salty tears fall, drowning me in sorrow

The shards of agony fall from above
They rain and lacerate my fragile body
So I curl, trying to evade the sharp pains

Waves crash within this broken cell
And I float,
I give in
Give up

I let this sadness carry me
The salty ocean conquers me
Devouring and leaving nothing behind

Down into the depths of my heart
Where the peaceful sadness lies
That is where I am
In my crying heart

My eyes are a darker brown,
Soiled with the horrors of reality
Cold to the core

My eyes hide in shadows,
Weaving lies of secrecy as they plot my next route to safety,
They calculate every move

My eyes are intriguing
The color not simple to tell
Their intentions not easy to see

These eyes shed tears,
They fight them to no avail
These eyes hold a darkness to them
These eyes show the hurt of accumulated pain


These eyes only show a beautiful gold of fiery hazel when the light hits them,
They show beauty and potential that has been long forgotten
They show the innocence thought to be gone

My eyes are dark and cold,
These eyes are difficult to understand
My eyes are cold and cunning,
These eyes are misunderstood
My eyes show pain and agony,
These eyes show a potential of beauty

Open the Gates of Hell and let the Storm free
Fill the Void with the Insatiable
Replace the darkness with the flames of Destruction
Let's dance in the Chaos of the End

Bathe in the harsh light of the Forsaken
Embrace it all
Succumb to the inevitable

Break the Seal which protects the balance
Let it all go and drown in it
Allow Chaos to finally manifest
For the Undesirables to sing their truths

Open the Gates of Hell and let the Storm free
Fill the Void with the Insatiable
Replace the darkness with the flames of Destruction
Let's dance in the Chaos of the End
For once, loosen your grip and fall into the chasm
Be engulfed with the ugly Truth within

It's something that can put a smile on your face and reassure you of your life and of those around you, believing that everything happens for a reason and that we are born to help one another. My why is more depressing. Life is horrible but we don't want it to be so. So we decided to delude ourselves with these thoughts that things happen for a reason, that we're not alone. Truth be told, on this earth, we are alone and we're horrible creatures. But we're creatures who have risen above and know true pain and love, things that we created and only we can understand. We find solace in one another and hope to find others like us so that our thoughts hold more truth to them. But if anything, things just happen because they do, no reason behind them. But at times, we're happy they do.

This empty page has potential like me,
To write the lines that tell a horrible tale
Or to depict the dark scene of the graphite terror

This empty page has no emotion
Which will I give it?
Which will show?

I'm no artist nor poet,
But a simple being who brings life onto this lonely page

This empty page is transparent as can be
The secrets I'll hide within the words and ink
The words I'll never speak, but cloak beneath the veil of lines and charcoal

This empty page is a fresh start,
Not yet stained with the mistakes of life,
No smudges nor failed words scar the white

I'm no wiseman, just a simple boy
Yet the dark on the page shock those around;
Makes them question what could've brought the black

This empty page is nothing but a story
With each one completed, another chapter is written
It's a story of the past frozen in the present

This empty page will be my legacy,
The greatness that it can be, awaits its creator to pour his soul
To fill the void with his damaged heart
And to show the scars he tries to hide

Don't fall into the dark
You can't lose your soul and believe no one loves you
I love you and I'll mend those broken cracks

Don't hate those around you
You can't keep hurting those that try to get close
I'll save you and teach you something other than pain

Don't cry yourself to sleep
Your tears they drown you amongst your sorrows
I'll fish you out and save you
With me, waking up everyday would be a breath of fresh air

Don't do it
The blades selfish and only cares for the thirst your blood gives it
I'll kiss your scars away
You won't need to suffer by my side,
I'd protect you from your demons

Sorry pal, but nothing is forever. Not even the strongest of chains, eventually they fade and break apart. That's life. But to truly live life, you must learn to treasure the present and the pleasant memories it gives birth to, to live through the dark times when solitude wishes to choke the light out of you.

What she asks for is something that she denied herself
With her slurred words, she sealed the doors
With every insult she got ****** into the darkness

My mind is a labyrinth, one that she desperately tries to decipher
With every bruise she makes a wrong turn
With every drop of crimson wine she falls into the black

Who she wants to know is someone who she pushed away
She doesn't know him, doesn't know that her flames become extinguished in his ocean of resentment

My heart is locked away and sealed, the key, something that must be earned
A key she frantically searches for
She tries to knockdown the walls, to make the door crumble
But her fists just make them all the stronger

When will she understand who she searches for is dead?
The undead left behind is unknown to her and she'll never know him because she can't **** him like she did with her son,
He's just a shell, a piece of battle armor brought to life

My life is not hers to command,
The boy who she seeks to dictate died,
I'm all that's left
And I will be in control of my life
Finally, ending her tyranny

Begging for help,
Crying in the inside
Wishing someone would see me drowning

No one stops
No one looks
No one cares

I battle day and night
This dark cloud comes and goes
I struggle to keep it in check
But I'm failing
I'm struggling

Wont someone save me?
Why can't anyone see?
Am I just too weak?

I'll keep on fighting,
Keep on the battle
I won't give up,
But won't someone lend me strength?