Anxiety
Controlling my everyday life
Anxiety
Taking my heart and throwing it against the wall
Anxiety
Wrapping around in my head to consume my thoughts
Anxiety
Crying and screaming against my throat
Anxiety
Crashing and thrashing its way into my body making me shudder
When theres a knock at the door
Anxiety
Lighting fires to my insides
Anxiety
Making my hands shake so someone will notice im unbalanced
Anxiety

Fear; its your best friend
When for yourself you cannot fend
It sticks by your side- company
It stays with you through thick and thin
Every which way you turn
Beneath your skin, it burns
It comes and goes from the surface
But does not cease to return

**** it all I'm not okay
you don't wanna get this way
love until your sweet heart breaks
read until your dark eyes ache
smile until your whole face breaks
laugh until your body shakes
scream until you have no hate
fight until you get away
sing until the days grow late
do whatever it will take
but don't give in to this dark fate
you don't wanna get this way

Are the words in your head worthy of being written?
&& if they were read out loud would anyone care to listen?
OR should you just leave them unsaid
so they never get the chance to spread?
Thoughts & pure randomness pours
of all my risks I've taken opening new doors
experiences I'll never forget or regret
all the good times I've had & new faces I've met
So much fun I've had so far
from road trips to L.A. or nights out at the bar
my life keeps getting better as I go
So I'll continue to just go with the flow
HAPPINESS is what you make it
be optimistic &  don't throw a fit
DON'T be afraid to take a chance
& ALWAYS make time to DANCE
LAUGH a LOT & smile often
you have the courage to do anything
as long as it's yourself you believe in!

I saw an old man,
Holding a can,
By the sidewalk,
He started to talk.

Seeking for some help,
I heard him yelp,
He’s broken,
For quite sometime he remained unspoken.

We are all busy talking about ourselves,
Reading it from our own shelves,
We just need to be open,
Rather than waiting for something that might not happen.

Looking at that man,
He made me feel like i’m in a can,
Trapped in a close container,
Hoping to get out of it sooner or later.

You can change your life
You just have to begin
Today
Of course, it will take time
Do not dwell on failure
Or mediocrity
It's not a contest
Think instead of today
Then tomorrow
When it becomes today
Do not ask why there is dirt inside a coffee ***
Or how long the drought will last
Don't shout at a cactus because it's not a rose
These things do not matter
And they won't stop you if you will only begin
It is not a matter of comparison
For though what one man can do so can another
But to what degree
And under what condition?
It is only for you to choose to be who you can be
Not what they can be or were
For though we know who was once great
The also knew who was greater than them
And yet they continued on
For they had to live in that way
The way you wish to live
But you must have the courage to begin
To call yourself an artist
Or an athlete
Or a cook
Or a connoisseur
Or a lover of life
And you are
Because you have made that decision
So now go
And learn about your new life
Wake up thinking about it
From now on
But not talking about it
Not right away
Wait until you know you have the will to change your life
And you will know when you are involved
When you want to be a part of it everyday
When the challenge of it means something to you
When you no longer care about failure
But instead you care about creativity
And the love of your new life
And the love of being simple in your new life
Because it need not be sophisticated
Or complex
Or flashy
Or justified
Except to your own heart
For who you have become
Is who you were always meant to be

I want to write and inspire the world,
My words carved in their mind
As they soar their wings and fly.
I want to be an instrument
Softly playing all the goodness of the Earth
And a reminder
That broken wings can be mended and fly again