Take my mind like a pocket book.
      Hold it between your hands,
      posses each of its pages, and
      you'll see, the chapters are tainted
      with your name on it.

Read my own thoughts in your own words.
      free your insecurities by the touch
      of my imagination
      of you teasing me with your teasing eyes
      look, you are the most beautiful, no,
      you are the definition of beautiful.

Feel me through each of my pages.
     I would be breathing under your handbag.
     And you'll take me to where you are headed.
     Show me what I showed you.
     Through my mind, i'll see you.

Burn me, with the heat of your grip.
     And if my mind is inside the flames you set
     I'd gladly embrace my own death
    for if i would burn inside your arms
    it would be the best way to perish.

It's not that
I didn't know what I had
It's just that
I never thought I'd lose it

If I were beautiful, would you love me more?
If I were magical, would i be the only one you'd adore?
If I were boisterous, would you laugh until unable?
If I were settled, would you feel more stable?

If I were spontaneous, would we have an adventure?
If I was fast-reacting, would our life move in a blur?
If I were lonely, would you kiss me at the kissing booth?
If I were mysterious, would you want to know the truth?

If I was rude, would you think of cursing?
If I wasn't me, would you fall for this person?
If I were me, would you want to be my joy?
If I were me, would i be more than your toy?

If I was optimistic, would you seal the deal?
If you had empathy, would you feel what I feel?
If I were a star, would you see how you make me shine?
If I were your love, would you see beyond the lie "I'm Fine."

- E.A.F

There was a time
I sat alone

empty heart
broken soul

I spoke not
for words escaped me

my fingers trembled
bones all aching

I thought it better
for no one to know

I wanted to leave
but had no where to go

-ARI

I'm finally beginning to empty, and I feel the pressure lessen like a hose that has drowned your insecurities for too long
I was filled with ideals of grandeur, that I could save you, that my care was the miracle drug, the antibiotic that would save the whole ******* world
But  no drug works forever and I can't fix skyscrapers with my bloodied hands.  But my small, sore hands can clean your windows and sweep your floors
I know that I'm not coward, I can't change everything tomorrow, I can't take away your sorrows and I'm not ******* foolish enough to ask the same
But I'm always here, like a lighthouse  that knows no matter how bright it shines her light everyone won't reach the shore
But all I can do is shine my light

See I knew all along
That you would never call

I could

scream your name
over and over again
and still
you wouldn't
give a ****
about
m
    e.

The thing that kills me most
Shattering me from within
Is not the absence of your shield
But this abrupt awareness
Of the awful emptiness
That has now settled into the place
Which hope has just vacated.
I ride out into the colloseum
Battle-clad in armour
Club swinging, sword at the ready
A quiver full of arrows
Just to defend you.
But I will fall at the very first shot
This armour I call my skin
Will be the death of me.
Because the truth is
You were my armour
You were my shield
And then I realised you never were.