remember me
as vivid as i used to be.
now i am slowly sinking into entropy.
catastrophe-
that's all i'll ever be.

if i had known
how much your wide,
chapped Lips and fervently whispered
Adorations would hurt me,
i think i still would have kissed you
in your room that sunday Night.

my body is a nest
for robin's eggs.
you taught me that
hatchlings aren't able to fly,
though they think they are.

my body is a nest
for robin's eggs.
you taught me that
in order to live
and to love,
part of me had to die.

my body is a nest
for robin's eggs.
you taught me that
i would never be
as beautiful or as perfect
as the dove.

my body is a nest
for robin's eggs.
you taught me that
i was worthless,
and if i wanted something,
i had to work for it.

my body is a nest
for robin's eggs.
you taught me that
you were protecting me
from the outside world.
i didn't realize i was suffering.


my body is a nest
for robin's eggs.
you taught me that
i couldn't trust anyone,
there were predators all around,
and when it rained, it poured.

my body is a nest
for robin's eggs.
i told myself that
it was time to fly.
oh, it hurt, but still,
your words were never as soft as the ground.

don't bury your ardor.
leave plum bruises on my blanched frame
as you kiss me harder.
let me hear the way your voice trembles when you whisper my name,
please. no holds barred, sir.
just go ahead and rekindle the flame
that burns like liquor.

I will do what the stinging tattoo on my ankle says
The one that i stabbed into my skin all by myself
The one that says breathe.

Breathe for the belief that everything will be okay
Breathe because scars heal faster that way
Breathe for the sake of renewal, health, and love
Breathe because thats what i was once taught as a small child

Breathe for the sake of not falling deeper
and deeper
into panic.

Breathe because even though i am scared of falling
of hurting
of not knowing
I will be OKAY

Breathe because it is our ******* right to do so
and breathe because my tattoo says so

the jade flecks in your eyes
form captivating constellations
that confess to me
the depth of your devotion.

rub your collarbones over mine and leave on me the smell of your skin so I can finally have something to wake up to

you can have all of me