Heather Ann

Heather Ann Oct 2018

i wonder what it would be like to touch lips with the mona lisa,
parchment paper tasting like olives and old wine.
how dare i so much gaze upon those royal crowns
when their value is more than i can name--
sailing ships just to catch her name,
paddling monstrous waters to merely catch her gaze.

freckles on your skin resembling ancient constellations
that i still see to this day,
that made me love those stars that gleamed in her eyes
looking at me as if i'm her prey.

but there's already an arrow in my heart,
i'm begging god to let me fight for her honor
a princess in shining armor.
only ancient when i close my eyes,
you are art amongst the flowers--
please don't float away.

#mona #lisa #wishing #dreams #royalty #hope

Heather Ann Oct 2018

monarchies

i built an empire on my back
and it grew like a staircase up my spin.
hunched over from the weight,
i crawled on my knees until they were scraped and bloodied,
my wounds reopening amidst the battle.
"victory stands on the back of sacrifice,"
so i crawl
because i am still moving.
and when my body breaks under the strain
of the new world order
i will collapse,
but it will not be in vain.

#monarchy #empire #body

Heather Ann Oct 2018

dreams from suburbia

i dream of domestication
while being nailed to the picket fence of perfection.
six figures;
i hold his hand in my right.
my reflection in the mirror is split in two
because i threw stones and ruined your view.
in my left, her hand is warm,
and we're making less than the man twenty stories up.
i've been kicked to the bottom,
but she tastes so sweet.
you see, it's bitter;
i'm two halves
and they're begging me to be whole.
call it what you want, but i'll hold them both.

#bisexual #love #nonconforming #proud #suburbia #dreaming

Heather Ann Oct 2018

a goblin symphony

where do i end and you begin?
in the grasp, you hold me in,
when i am merely a summer breeze
or a kiss of death.
what am i to you,
if nothing more than
crashing symphonies
playing tone-deaf melodies?
i am entirely unto you,
bound to your grace
where i am held, hostage;
in the belief that if you kiss my poisonous lips
and seek refuge
where i do not deserve
such a happily ever after
but a gravestone next to yours.

#love #symphony #goblin #kiss #undeserving

Heather Ann Oct 2018

tentative but unflinching

i am quiet courage;
stumbling through the dark
with hands trembling
like thunder,
but never faltering.

i bend, but i will not break
as you snap the parts of me
you see unfit
leaving me broken and stranded
for the vultures
because an animal
is an animal
is an animal.
i am not a passerby with odds and ends
that you can tuck in.
in the throes of spring,
i blossom;
tentative, but unflinching.

#courage #silence #hurt #brave #growing #love

Heather Ann Oct 2018

apocalyptic daydreams

carry me home tonight,
against the burning sky.
at least i'll see it
one
last
time.

explosions;
raining fire on the mountain,
pulsing apocalyptic red;
my mind
spinning like a pinwheel
with all the things
i should have said.

i am breathing with my lungs,
but my throat is still dry.
i am coughing up blood,
but my teeth are still white.

i am nearing the apocalypse,
with eyes rimmed red
like the last setting sun;
i am warm, but i am dead.

#apocalypse #daydreams #regret #nostalgic #youth

Heather Ann Oct 2018

6

oh how easy it is
to succumb
to the mercy of my own greed.
instantaneous;
like fingers flicking through
burning candle flames.
danger is right around the corner
if i turn in that direction,
leaving the car idling
while dashing on cracked pavement
making my mothers back break
a thousand times over
for a moment's taste
of chaos.

#seven #deadly #sins #greed #danger