is it your mind
that wraps itself around
the desire you have
to love
and be loved in return
or is it your heart
that still believes in fairytales
and fools you
to invest
all your strength
into a love
that will never ever last
but either one
is just as bad
because both of them
will leave you  
just as broken
as you began.

What I've always wanted
I realize
Is for someone to see
the world through my eyes

Though no one ever will,
I fear my mistakes and misdemeanors
seem unclear
to all but myself



In solitude i find my own place
to go when i fall from grace
.
.
  .
    time and time again

And from my closet i pull a mask
the performance begins!
as i do every menial task
to appear as they expect

And even in a different place
unknown eyes watch
and present every case
for unwarranted scrutiny



and then the people i thought would stay
the mistakes i made
oh,for those i did pay
.
.
  .
    dearly


Apologies seem to fall flat
as the multitude of roads I chose
that seem to be recurring

So see the world through my eyes
i beg of you
please recognize
the efforts of my newborn self
put past memories
on a shelf and let me start anew

Oh mirror mirror on the wall
Who's the most worthless of them all?
I try and try and try again
But no way in Hell I'd ever be a ten
Why is it that in all my mess
You still want to see me in a dress
To walk with pride down the aisle
As if I'd ever pass this trial...

Your smile hurts me more than tears
I wish I can spend with you all my years
But life quickly pulls me away from you
If only you could see it too...

The distorted image that stares back at me
Grins with malice as it hears my plea
Just go away and don't come back
Please just let my world fade to black...

Those

who

fought

the

battle

with

grace,

are

able

to

lea­ve

their

mark

with

grace !!