Times are hard.
I need you here.
I'll be here, you said.
But i dont see you anywhere.
Its getting harder for me to bear.
I miss you.
The reality is seeping into my skin.
You're gone. I dont see you returning.
I am suffering.

Hold me as i cry.
Encourage me as i try.
Dream on, Miss Reality said.
Because all that is left is goodbye.

Just come into my dreams, at least.
You can comfort me there.
That is enough.
Because times are hard
And I need you here.

Hey there, Little Soul.
Will you come back to me?
How can i ever walk around empty?
It's hurting your darling Heart.
It's refusing to beat.
You're all that it needs.

Hey there, Little Soul.
Where are you now?
Have you found a new home?
Come back here now, Little Soul.
It was a mess before
But i have cleaned it all up
Now. It's brand new.

Hey there, Little Soul.
Oh so far way you are, love.
Float closer to me.
I'll guide you home.
It's in me, my dear.
You belong to me, Little Soul.

Till then
Your darling Heart
Will remain Cold.

I am the bug
That flies around you
To watch over you
Hoping to protect you, little girl.
But you will push me away
Because after all
I am a bug.
Useless and small.

I was never lost.
I had you.
I was never lost.
I had you.

Or maybe I never had you.
I was lost.
Or maybe I never had you.
I was lost.

You tell me.
What was going on?
Was I lost?
Or was I never
Because I had you.
I have no idea.

But I know
That I now have truly
Lost you.

You're the gas
To the empty car
And that empty car
Is me
And you are the gas
That left the car empty
But you are the gas
That can fill the car up
To make it move.

And if you are ever broken,
I'll make sure to pick all
the pieces
not to fix you
but to be the strength
to keep you together.
You will still be a mess
but I'll lose myself in your pieces
And we'll be a mess
Together

And if you are ever bleeding
I know that i wont be the only gauze
to stop your bleeding
but i will be the last
and i will last
the longest.

And if you are ever in pain,
I'll hug you so tight
So i could absorb the pain
Like the gauze absorbing the blood,
If words cannot ease your pain.

And if you are ever lost,
I may not be able to be your map.
I'm sorry.
But i can hold your hand
and you wont have to be lost alone.

So, close your eyes, sweetheart.
Let the night be peaceful.
Let the serenity of the night
carry you away to wonderful places.
Let not the worries enter
Your mind and soul.
The pain will fill your nights'
With nightmares.

I wish you were here, You *******.
I want to beat you up so bad
For all that you have done
Then I want to cuddle you close
Because I miss you.

I want to see you cry so badly
Because I want you to feel what I feel
But I will kiss your eyes and hold you tight
When you are asleep
Because I still love you.

I want to **** you so bad
Because you do not deserve to live after all that you have done
But I will be by your grave every second of my remaining days
because I will be missing you madly, truly, deeply.

I want to throw you into the darkness
Because i want you to live the way I am living
And will always be living
But I will slowly glow for you
Because I still want to be your light.

I want to see you bleed so badly
Because you drained all the blood in my heart, killing me.
Maybe after that we can be ghosts together
Invisible and in love.

Only you, colossal idiot, can break me and hurt me this bad
And it should be mutual
So I will protect you from everything else
But myself.

Yes
We can never be together forever
But during those times
When we were together
We built this room in our hearts
That are meant for each other
And it will always remain there
No matter what happens
We can be apart for years
And that room will still be there
If you ever need me
You can run to the room
And escape
I'll be there.
It'll be our secret escape.

The walls are caving in
Darkness setting in
Not a single ray of light seeps in
But i like it.

Everyone
Everyone i knew
Everyone i had
Everyone i loved
And still love
Everyone that i gave a piece of me to
turned away
and walked away
with that piece
never looking back.
not even once,

But i like it.

Everyday
I feel as if
I am walking under clouds
That are raining knives
With the knives piercing through me
In every way it could
Just like innocent raindrops.

But i like it.

Each night
I wet my eyes
With my own raindrops
Then i shut them tight
and lock myself away
Repeating the mantra
Don't wake up.
Don't wake up.
Don't wake me up.
But when the morning comes
I will be awake
And my eyes were allowed to be opened.

I have no choice then
I have to get up
And live it away
Bleeding as i walk around
The face of this Earth.

People throwing words at me
as i walk
You need to stop.
You need to get out of this.
Lets find a way together.

But no.
This pain is a drug
That i am addicted to
And no rehab nor therapies
could fix it.

And i
Love it.

I believe
That every man is an Island
That ultimately
Being alone is
Your destiny.

I believe
That other human beings were created
Not to understand you
But to help you
Understand yourself.

I believe
That every human being
Has demons inside them
That is feeding on their soul
The result of
Each and every unspoken word
Every unexpressed feeling.

I believe
That this world has 90% flaws
And 10% perfection.

I believe
That we were born
Just to read our own minds
And not to assume what is on others' .
You can never
Really know what is going
With someone.
Because what they show
Is what they want you to know.
And the reason why
They don't want you to know is
You are not worth it.

But Oh The Almighty God
Please read and understand me.
Please be with me.
Please stay with me.
Please teach me how to
Love the flaws and
Admire the perfection.
Please show me the way to tame
These demons
Because if You do not,
I will,
I just might,
Disappear.

The light is fading off
The grip is loosening
The tears just cannot seem to stop,
It just keeps flowing.

We know it is supposed to be
Over
But we just do not want it to.
I certainly do not want you to go further
Because i am still
Loving you.

But we know,
That either today
Or tomorrow
We have
To let each other go.

We long to be
In each other's arms
But we never know when,
The time will come.
All we want to do is
Be together
But we have to,
Let each other go.

I cannot stand
Missing you
You are still living
In Me.
In My Heart.
In My Mind.
In My Soul.
And you always
Will
Be.

Before i go to sleep,
I think about you.
When i go to sleep,
I dream about you.
When I wake up from my sleep,
The first thing that comes to my mind
Is you.

I really do not want it
To be over.
You are not drifting further
But instead, you are getting closer.
I am praying really hard
That you
Can be mine forever.

It is funny that
I have this fear
That forever
Will never last.
Good memories drives me
To tears
As minutes by minutes
Time past.

When I feel lonely,
I close my eyes
And imagine you here with me.
My heart beats fast.
My eyes starts to rain.
No
I
Cannot
Take
This.
I just miss you
Over
And
Over
Again.