your memories cut through
my heartstrings tied in knots
how cruel of you
to visit my thoughts

3 months, 12 weeks, 61 days
enough to make my heart ablaze
4 months, 16 weeks, 83 days
without you, my life's a haze

Am I the only one who cares
about keeping in touch?
Am I the only one who dares
to wait without rush?

Why am I the only one who's hurt?
Is it because of the effort I exert?
Is it because I care deeply
when they were having fun freely?

I wait, I wait, and I wait.
I sacrifice time because it's worth it.
But you can't even stay for me
Am I not worth it?

With you, I want to be.
With them, you want to be.
So I ask again,
Am I not worth it?

Happiness with you, I desired
but now, I am sick, I am tired
I must find happiness on my own
I can only be happy alone.

it has been days and weeks
since my tears kissed my cheeks
yet here i am, writing in such a long time
with you in my mind, i cant think of any rhyme

it's always you for months and weeks,
it's you my mind always thinks
your name my mouth always speaks
your soul my heart always seeks

There is a heavy gloom in the July air
I don't know why but I don't feel at home here
Maybe it's from the kids who called me worthless or maybe its from the fact I don't really feel like I have a purpose
I'm just hoping the warmth from the sun will bring some comfort when it's gray
And despite all of this I've been doing okay
I just don't feel at home here...