When we break
our walls.
Even if we
stumble and fall.
To dare and to live.
To take and to give.
To share and to care.
To feel this love everywhere.
More emotions you can bear.
Do we have the capacity.
To live our life just as
much as we wanted to be.
I wonder sometimes.
If all our dreams will
turn into reality.
Or maybe we stay.
Forever in the delay.

I can put my words
into pretty poems.
And share all the love
into this Hello Poetry.
But there is something
you didn't know about me.
How can I say this easy.
I feel so much love.
And my throughts are filled
with hope, tender love
and care.
But my own true emotions
I can hardly speak out.
I can put up a smile
but still crying inside.
I do think that I can solve
all my problems on my own.
As I'm writing this down
it sounds kind of sad.
Like a writers block
inside of my head.
No one can change it for me.
This is me in all
of my vulnerability.
Don't feel sorry.
This is how life could be.
But in times and years.
I found my place and learned
so much about being me.
And that was the part you
didn't know about me.

Truth is you
weren't blameless
I saw your eyes
flash red that night
the fire in your palms
wouldn't burn out.

Together we were
a suicide pact,
there was something
about the drug in
each others eyes
that made us want
to overdose.

We itched like
razor blades
on each others skin,
our tongues a noose,
heartbeats fast,
furious.

My hands bled love
my knuckles
bruised like skies
I puked up every word
until I could finally
say goodbye.

we take long drags
of each others skin,
the addiction comes
in phases.
day 1: my lungs sigh, weary,
air does not satisfy,
day 2: we're chasing
lifelines, that are rusted
and in vain
day 5: bad habits are
hard to break, beg, at the
holy altar of our mistakes
day 8: hands desperate,
clammy, unfurl
like belladonna palms.
day 9: i hope your
vocal cords strain, that
the only word you can
bear to say is 'stay'.
day 11: last breaths
muffled in the
graveyard of a kiss.
day 17: darling, i'm
losing track of time
day 28: i'm finding it
a little bit hard to quit.