this intoxicating drink
is absurdly disgusting
yet tastes better
than watching you love her
so i rather sip on
this vision-blurring liquor,
in order to be unable
to look in the mirror
and realize
my eyes
will never shine like hers
my lips
will never kiss you as good
my body
will never feel as warm
as when you hold her
and my smile
will never be a smile
because i won't smile
as long as i watch you love her
this is such a cliché poem but it's what i feel