i climb the scaffolding
look down below
spirit faltering
will i die in the blow?
caffeine swirling,
dizziness whirling,
truth obscured
devil-lured
dry darkness,
unfeeling eyes,
dropping, heartless
out of the skies
failing, falling,
faster than water,
missed my calling,
embracing slaughter
but i'm still here,
didn't dare,
risk the fear
of devil's snare
This was a memory. At the moment I do not have suicidal wishes.