all the voices so ******* loud
                                                           ­                  opinions
orders                                                  ­                            
                           urges
compulsions                          
                     ­                                                             idea­s
temptations                                                    ­                    
            desires
arguments               ­             

the thick, dark cloud in my mind
wants me to cry
wants to see me bleed
precision pressure
it knows what to do

STOP.

I CAN'T                 I CAN'T                I CAN'T
I CAN'T     I CAN'T                                             I CAN'T
                                  I CAN'T                       I CAN'T
I CAN'T        I CAN'T         I CAN'T I CAN'T


I CAN'T MAKE THEM STOP!!!!!!
THEY WON'T GO AWAY

GET
THEM

O U T!!!

GETITOUTGETITOUTGETITOUTGETITOUT


GET! THEM! OUT!

OF MEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I can't think
I can't feel
I can't move
Can't act
think
feel
move
act
feel
think....
think.

think...


it hurts

that's all that's there

just pain

please

someone

somehow

take it

I’m done
I’m tired
I’m through with this
All this false stability
Repression
I’m ready
The dam’s gonna break
The flood is imminent
I can’t stay wound this tight
I’m just waiting for something
Push me over the edge
Free my imprisoned mind
Release me from the chains
Just give me a night or two
Of havoc
Chaos
Torment
Just unhinge me

I wanted to be sad
To mourn for her
The young lady there...
Suffering.
She’s felt a lot of pain
Felt deep sorrow
Shouldered awful burdens
Experienced mortal terror
Over and over again
She didn’t know
If she wanted to continue


But I swallowed their solution
It saved me
I can’t complain
But now sleep is creeping in quickly
Won’t be keeping conscious long enough
To sit and be kind
To my self from last year

louder.

more.

Turn it up.

Louder.

LOUDER!!!


LOUDER!!! LOUDER!!! LOUDER!!! LOUDER!!! LOUDER!!! LOUDER!!! LOUDER!!! LOUDER!!! LOUDER!!! LOUDER!!! LOUDER!!! LOUDER!!! LOUDER!!! LOUDER!!! LOUDER!!! LOUDER!!! LOUDER!!! LOUDER!!! LOUDER!!! LOUDER!!! LOUDER!!! LOUDER!!! LOUDER!!! LOUDER!!! LOUDER!!! LOUDER!!! LOUDER!!! LOUDER!!! LOUDER!!! LOUDER!!! LOUDER!!! LOUDER!!! LOUDER!!! LOUDER!!! LOUDER!!! LOUDER!!!LOUDER!!!LOUDER!!!LOUDER!!!LOUDER!!!


and the realization sets in
that no matter how loud
no matter how much noise
how chaotic the sounds
how desperate the screams
how tragic the lyrics...
                                ..            ..       ­  ... .
                                                     . . . . .           .                     ...
                                .. ...           ... . . ..      .
...

i couldn't drown out
the voices torturing me
in my mind