Ugh,
I got this.
Felt like yesterday we was just spitting in the room
Now I'm 25 years old bout to be on the move
We both knew this was coming soon
But how come I can't quite say I'm excited, while lookin back at you?
Because things have to change and I know it hurts
Growing pains coming in, ****
I know they hurt
But the memories always will last and family remains my whole
And I'll never forget the one place that I will always call home.

I got few things to say before I go and fly away
I remember all the traditions, all the holidays
Remember the bunk bed being filled with me and Renee
Knowing santa was coming soon, as we tried to stay awake
Playing games till the sunrise with me and my brother
Coming home real late and just talking life with my mother.
Can't forget listening to tunes with my baby sis
****, those the moments I think imma really miss
But the memories always will last and family remains my whole
And I'll never forget the one place that I will always call home.

Let take ya back to the glory days
Friends knocking on my door to see if I can come out and play
Remember playing every sport till the sun went down
Trying HOLLA at all the girls when ever we'd walk to town
The block to the spot we was holding it down
No phones, no sense of time just on our bikes strolling around.
****, how things have changed
The stories I have would fill up this whole page
I'm proud of all them now and see them all making moves
It's just part of life, growing up. Imma miss ya and just hope we always stay cool. But the memories always will last and family remains my whole
And I'll never forget the one place that I will always call home.

I told myself I wouldn't breakdown in this last verse
But it's hard to walk away from the one place you'd always go first
Leaving at all the memories, **** that's the worst
I'm playing tough guy, I won't cry! Really internally I'm about to burst.
Time has past so fast when did I become this man?
Making momma proud of her first child has always been my plan
She told me "she's happy for me but gunna miss the conversations"
But she know my phone always on and her call, I'll be waiting
I dreamed of this moment and knew God wanted me patient
Held my breath for so long I nearly fainted, this was the piece work that I've always painted
Scared as hell and can't tell ya what's bout to come next
But I know life waitin for me and I can't wait for what comes next
Growth part of the journey
As its glory we're yearning
Thank you lord...I can finally feel my life start turning.
Took me out of the dark and let me see the brand new
Never give up when you're down, you can get back up. That all im tryna say to you
But the memories always will last and family remains my whole
And I'll never forget the one place that I will always call home.

(Turn the music off!)  
Yeah,
This is my last thing and I know God got a plan for me and I wanted to talk quick to my family tree
Thank ya for never quitting, giving up on me. I promise to take what all ya taught with me. Renee taught me to be calm, Cori showed me how to be free, Eric showed me how a brother can mean most to me.
All three ya always mean the most to me. If wasn't for your gifts, there would be no glow to me.
But last and not least gotta talk my mama
Superwoman! The one who put up with years of drama
Teaching me how to be strong and covered me with armor
"Be a good person" never wanted bad karma
We escaped the worst, you took me outta the Devils hurst. Seeing you cry by a man always felt the worst
I grew up strong because you always lead by example. Raising a man on her own must of been a handful!
But you created a gentleman and nice young man,
Who treats women with respect and does right when he can.
Mama you're my shining star and biggest fan.
You're the center piece to the puzzle of our amazing fam.
I promise I'll give back to you, gimmie time, watch your son become a good man.
As he leaves where he's from and goes off on his own,
Remember ya, no matter where ya go...there's no place like home. (Echos out)

(Aye Dougie, Dougie you aight kid? Dougie!)

(Fade into me singing)

Imma tell the truth and the whole truth, cause there ain't no need to lie, and I ain't tryna keep it all inside...so I gotta testify for you and I...I testify..

Why lie! Maybe it's every guy, who's left her deprived, of every lost  moment she holds inside.
Baby, don't hide, don't cry, I promise I'm so different
It's her strength, it's my pain keeping us so disant
So much resistance
Yet, we're a perfect match
We left eachother once, but destiny brought us back
Cause you're stubborn, so am I
But girl, over time
You'll see what we do for eachother is unlike anything that rhymes,
the melody matches and sounds smooth...
Why can't I be her main dude?
I'm tryna get to know you
Please help me get through
I know it's easier to walk alone, but
Babe let me walk with you.

(Time to talk Dougie)

It seems fools never know what they want
and the certain think they can get what they can't have
I like her. I want her. I miss her.
Now tell me, is that truly something bad?
to be hoping to see her name as you wait on a "good morning" text
missing the way she would lay in your arms without any intentions of trying to have ***.
It was the feelings of having someone who just wanted you around.
It's the feeling we all search for, right? being wanted, thought about...picked up when you're down.
The feeling you can't control and never see coming
I just needed to say this ****t out loud, it was time for me to say something..

(Paused moment)

Crazy that was about a month ago..

Why must a good thing never last?
mine hit me like a blind sided accident...I guess I didn't look and she was going fast.
The past is now the past.
I wish I could trade in all the chances I missed, to help make something I truly enjoyed, last.

(Inner thoughts! Get her, dougie)

She's a wish after the candle, the angel you can't handle, a promise you want to keep, perfection...amazing in every angle.
Independent and doesn't need ya
One of a kind and a keeper,
Girl look in the mirror, you're a prize
If he ain't right, better leave em

(Phase 2, lil more Dougie)

****, I didn't want her to think I was just like every other man...
Wanted to be more than just a moment in her plans.
But I confess up, I messed up, let my heart just take over.
Should of slowed up the pace, kept that smile on her face... the old me is what sold her.

(What else?)

I remember every moment, every smile, every thing and hope you know I have nothing but the up most respect.
You've taught me so much more than you'd ever know, all amazing things and I wouldn't expect anything less.
Sorry for not being better than your past... more tranquility, less stress
I just want you to always find peace, passion and happiness...with your career, your life and all the good that may come next. (even love)
what else would you expect?

(**** kid)

Just remember people
If something made you truly happy, you should never have any regrets.

(Finish to her, kid)

Never hesitate from giving your all...more individuals would be happy today if they dropped their pride

"I don't miss her, I don't want her, I don't care...let her go"

(What!?)

Please, Oh Yeah,
p.s; I lied.

(Knew that wasn't true, hope you get her kid)

Interviewer: Douglas Simpkins, who are you? We don't understand you..the world seems to mis read you..can you tell us in a few words, maybe? Who is Douglas Simpkins?

(Heart beats)
(The sound of writing)

Dear Everyone,

Time has passed. I maybe overthinking this but I can't find my brains top latch
(So my thoughts are out)
You ask "what's that about?"

Let me explain..

I said things, broke things
Never thought I'd become inslaved..
To the monster who's beating inside me
To the ignorance placed in my grave
I done messed up, never confessed up, talk to god now, so maybe I'm blessed up?
But we cool and talk about when I was in school
How I created so many lies, blamed it on a high..
Stabbed so many backs that nobody walked with a spine.
Walk a mile in my shoes? nobody wanted my 9s
Figured Id grow outta my fears and self overtime..
Something happened,
And I gradually found death
I spoke to him as he would glare at me with darkness spewing from his breath
Manipulation at its best
As he grabbed a hold of my chest
Told me "only the good die young"
Put his hand on my pecks and pushed me back to this mess.

(Then what?)

I tried to follow purity,
The constant fight with this monster inside of me!
He wants anger! I just want maturity.
A sense of security.
Maybe that's why I'm so locked down
She thinks I'm being stubborn
But she don't know, I'm just starting to open up and share all about my past now.
****..and I gotta be honest,
I want you to be the one that I endure the longest,
Who accepts me at me at my weakest, supports me at my strongest.

(Let her now kid)

Hiding the truth in these subliminal notes,
Ask myself
If you like her why don't you go after what you desire the most?
Probably because I was a felon in loves convictions
I believe she deserves to enjoy life without pain and loves restrictions.

(Again man!?)

Yeah, I also needed time to break down. Weak knees, lord please, help me feel the force of the ground. The words of the angels and only some can hear the sound.
Ask yourself if you needed help, who the F!ck would be around?
I was stranded in the water and you just watched in an attempt to let me drown!
I survived!
Look at me rise! from all your f@cking let downs!

(Take it easy man)

But I tend to constantly escape, to a world, a beautiful place
Where I can't be judged, I can finally be alone and mediate in my vital space
A mind that represents the ocean, a heart that's the beating sun, a soul that is the sand, and a life that is all I want to become.

(That's beautiful)

Because we all have a story
Not one makes less sense.
I took a gun to misery, blasted the ****t outta it
Walked away and left that ***** for dead.
This is me. I can't make this up for your amusement
My words are the bullets, excuse me as I reload my weaPEN.

(Doug, calm down!)

Chill man, I told you I'm grown now and have full control.
I just speak with alotta passion and that don't go away even as you get old.
This my story and they wouldn't believe me if it wasn't properly told
I was a beast, a loose bullett that could **** a person with one shot..stare em down and spit a venom so cold.
But I apologize for it all and taking ya down this road...

(Hands shaking)

I prospered from myself and learned to hold my own.
Stick with me now and please embrace my change. Help me write my story and turn a new page.
Goals can be made, I never heard there ever had to be a certain age.
Giving you my all now and hope ya will accept my best
But still look back once in a while...
So that I'll never forget.

(Oh my god)

Also, had to go back to the lab, reconnect and draw up some new plans
And by the way, you can't know who Doug is...when it's really Bland.
Amen.

(Stopped writing)

Interviewer: I have no words. Thank you.

The toxins in her lips are slowly killing me...
Infatuation in the air starting to make me weak...
When I was all alone, I was fast asleep
But since you came around, I've been up for weeks.
****,
Is she tryin to purposely hurt me?
Is it all my imagination?
Maybe this all inside of me.
Cold sweat in me bed, thought I turned on the heat..?
Past wounds from long ago are starting to reopen on me.
The end of the bed starting to feel so steep...
She knows I'm afraid but is daring me to leap.
I, I know you're mind isn't thinking clear
Have you ever tried to drive, while your emotions are impaired?
Love drunk from the shots that she was serving..
Can't see straight.
Now I'm swearing.
Arrived safe...not sure where I've been.
Knock at the door, do I let her in?
Is this the devils temptation?
Cause I'm addicted to the rush, all the hard breathin.
Knowing she's tryna take me life with every kiss of seduction...
This woman...is made of pure corruption...
But don't stop.

Addicted, dicted, dicted

Forcing me into her rehab,
Pills are her persuasive lies
Belief makes me relapse..
I finally act up, try to leave
Her body forces me to reeeeeelax.

Now I'm stuck

Stuck, in this place

I'm confusing hugs with ***
Love starts to transform to hate.

Will I ever get out?

The doors open...yet, I can't escape.

As pictures fade and the temperature rises...
Her heart, plays no part
I'm no man of surprises.
Why are you so mesmerizing?
Why can't I shake this temptation?
Why do her grips make me sick?
Why am I suddenly shaking...
Eh
I can see what she feels
I've become her *** appeal
Is love truly real?
Am I just her final meal?
As she cooks up a thought that's unconscious.
She suddenly gets astonished
Men lie, men are deranged
Please, don't dare make a promise.
But baby, can I be honest?
Oh wait,
All men lie..
So let's let lust become a must
Forget that we ever tried.
Mhh
Taste of disaster
Mhh
Hearts moving faster
****...
This wasn't part of my plan
Your ego is harsh
Your mind is cluttered
Makes it hard to be your man.
(Piano)
Hard to be your man.
But I do what I can..
I matched your heart with my life
What a perfect blend.
Simple words to describe her
My stomachs become lighter
Flying high, with these butterflies
I think I might...like her.
*I Do.

My face above the clouds...
My feet can't touch the ground...
And it feels like...
I remain in love acoma,
Your love kept my love stuck, so stuck
My heartbeat won't make a sound.
It feels like...
I'm slowly drifting,
Drifting away..
Into the water of unstable knees,
Wishful beliefs..
Maybe if I,
Maybe if I
Drift farther out into the clouds
We may fly...
Maybe if I close me eyes
We can imagine a vision of you and I?
I apologize
For jumping into the bottles and...
Drifting away
I know
I know you begged me to stay...
I know you left and gone away
But I'm
I'm slowly drifting
Wave after wave
Wave after wave
Into the open seas
Slowly drifting
Wave after wave...
I miss you
Want I kiss you
But another storms coming
Here comes the wave..
Wave after wave
I'm drowning
wave after wave...
(crying) wave after wave
(sinking)
I was slowly...
Drifting