I watch as I fall,
Slowly down I go,
Into a place of no return.
No longer the same person,
That I used to be.
Once I was always happy,
A smile on my face,
Now I watch from afar,
As the world goes on without me.
The train has left,
But I am still here.
I have taken a long journey,
But got lost on the way,
And nobody can be found,
To help me back home.
The memories of yesterday,
Are forever gone,
And I am left,
With no one.

Always remember to love.
Love with every fiber of your being
And with no regrets.
Let your walls down
And accept the happiness
That you deserve,
And always know
That you are worthy of love.

Always remember to never hold back.
Your feelings are valid
So speak your mind
And don’t worry about what others think.
Accept who you are
And don’t ever let anyone change
The way you think or feel
Because it makes you
The unique person that you are.

Always remember to trust yourself,
Because you are the only one
That will always have your back.
People will come and go
So don’t be numb and cold
But be cautious
About who you open up to.

Always remember to never give yourself away.
The one’s you care for
Are capable of leaving
No matter how hard you try
And how much of yourself you give.
Giving someone your all
Makes you vulnerable
And easy to break
Like a sheet of thin glass
And people will take advantage.

Always remember to be spontaneous.
Dance in the rain
And sing until your lungs give out
Embrace your inner child
And live in the moment.
You are never too old for adventure
And life is too short
To dwell on the past.

Always remember to be passionate.
Stay motivated
No matter how stressful it may get
Because it will be worth it in the end
If you love what you are doing.
And never stop working
Until you have given your all
And reached your goal.

Always remember to fight through the pain.
No matter how hard it gets
Don’t give up.
When it feels like you are drowning
Learn how to swim.
This is only a small chapter
In your life
So turn the page
And start fresh.  

Always remember to live like there’s no tomorrow
Because you never know if there will be.

Love,
Future you

I’m an addict
I love the rush
Of the way it feels
When her lips meet mine
And her hands
Graze over me
Ever so gently
As we are sitting in silence
Because words cannot express
The value of our love
And the way it feels
To exist at the same time
And in the same world
That she does.

To love another person,
Isn’t what one might expect.

Their past holds many secrets,
Always dark and messy,
But can’t be altered,
And will stick with them forever.

The present is spontaneous,
Scary and volatile at times,
But constantly changing,
As we grow and learn.

But to walk into someone’s life,
And change their future.
Is what it takes,
To fall in love.

I am not a human anymore,
I am just a being
Going through the motions,
Conforming to society.
Emotionless and emotional
All at once
Confusing those around me
And myself.
I cannot connect with you
And I don’t want to try
Because I simply do not care
To waste time.
I don’t know who I am
I don’t know what I am
I am just living
And hoping to survive.
But if I don’t
The world will be just fine
Without me.

My house knows secrets
Of my family
Because it has witnessed
The things we hide behind
Our perfect image
And fake smiles.
It has witnessed the life
And inevitable death
Of our beloved pets
As my father cried
When they were taken away
It has witnessed the screams
Coming from my parents’ room
Late at night
When they thought
That we were asleep.
It has witnessed long nights
When my parents fought,
Us comforting each other
And losing sleep.
It has witnessed the cries
In my darkest times
As I was growing up
And feeling dead inside.
It has witnessed growth
From infancy to adulthood
As we quickly learned
How to survive
In this harsh world.
My house knows secrets
Hidden from the world
But that’s what makes it
My home.

What if you wake up one day
And realize that I’m not the one for you anymore?
That there’s someone out there,
That will love you more than I can.

What if you decide
That I’m just too much?
That I’m a burden that’s holding you back
From your full potential.

What if my smile
Doesn’t make your day the way it used to?
Because there’s someone else
Who makes your heart melt.

What if you don’t need me
Like you used to?
But it doesn’t matter
That I still need you.

What if I’m just not enough
For you anymore?
But you don’t know how to tell me
That it’s over.

What if you have these same thoughts?
And you’re just as scared of losing me
As I am of losing you.
But what if you’re not?

It’s 2:47 AM and you’re all I can think about