Putting effort in
Law of Returns
Diminishing
Deserving
Caring enough
Falling flat
All the…Yous
All ******* over
It. Me. Us.
But exhaustion reigns
And refills remain
Closed
Break me
From your neglect
Your words
Your mind
Your body
And…Always ok
I Am
Okay

OKOKOKOK

but i want to ….

Living this limbo
I want you
So badly
I want you to need me
I need you to need me
I miss you
Without even touching you
I don’t get it
You worm your way in
Every time
I hate it
I love it
And I fall
Into your words
Your song
The whispers you give
Then That look
That ******* look
Like you know my secret
How to maneuver my hallway
Down to my dungeon
I want to give up
Give in
Run away
Please
Don’t Take
my heart

“A burden of joy”
A joy so heavy you have to feel it
Hold it in your arms
Cradle it to your chest
Rock it steadfast to sleep