I realize

       Now

    You're

The Reason

        I've

     Been

  *Holding
          Back

i live inside my own reflection
hold on tight
no sense of direction
perfect girl no tears no lesson
perfection is not perfection

cut open my heart
and promise not to look inside
you'll no longer feel you something to alive

I'm
   Faster
      Than
         I
            Look,
               But
                  I'm
                     Not
                        So
                           Bold.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~
  Remembering
The
      Beginning
              Is
      Necessary
         To
             Heal
       From
                  The
       Ending
~~~~~~~~~~~~~

And there you are
I'm sitting next to you
And I can feel you everywhere
I wonder what you smell like
Is that weird
I shouldn't be so nervous
And there you are
Your lips are on mine and I feel infinite
Its as though I can feel for the first time
How did I breathe without you
I can't stop this
Or my feelings for you
How did this happen
God if only I could breath you in
And keep you with me forever
It was only suppose to be a kiss

You've been my best friend
and worst enemy.
I've felt my heartbeat rhythmically pulsing into the ground.
When I cannot stand
you are there to catch me,
always.
But there's another catch too.
I'd like what you stole from me.
Too many times in which I've lost my breath
because of pain you inflicted.
Why do you let so many terrible people walk all over you?
And she-
She is buried six feet into your skin.
A gem to this world but you'd never know it.
Dear Earth.
I want her back.
I'll even trade places with her if you'd like.
Let her give life to you again.
Let me go under
and never come back up.

Fading* in the shadows
Is where I feel at home
Hidden from piercing gazes
Up and down my soul they roam

Drawing back the curtains
They feed on my heart
Tearing at my emotions
A worn sadistic art

Driven through a world
Etched in toxic blood
Altered through war and greed
D**rowning in green mud