It begins when a
butterfly dies. My stomach
is an insect grave.

You are going on a journey,
one never to forget, but don't
fear you will not be alone.

You take with you friendship
and love, parts given freely
by everyone.

You have touched so many
with out knowing, you have
friends that will remember
you, when the clock stops
and you are gone.

You are never alone, please
know that, for when you decide
its time, when the time comes.
Know that you have not gone
alone.

You take with you a piece of
love and friendship from each
of us, to where ever your journey
takes you, know that  you do not
go alone...

Some times people read a
book by the cover, they judge
by what is on the outside.

Never taking time to open it
to read a page or two, and
then realize that the cover
has changed along with there
view.

Always read a little before
you judge, for to many judge
a book by the cover of
the book before opening
it up.

My eyes may be dry, that's because I cry inside

I sulk in the corner she says
we cant play, I throw the
pillow, anger shows I her face.
I am grown up but I want to
play, I bite at her neck she
shoves me away, a nibble is
all I want but she slaps me in
the face.

My fingers touch, she stares
with eyes open wide, I'm
washing my hair you did
that last night.

I hate the feeling of being
ready for it, but she is to
tired to play my little game.

So off to sleep I now go, then
two in the morning she decides
that she is ready to play, I role
over to tired for her games..

Never surrender never give
up, fight for it tooth and nail
for it is too precious to give up.

There are those that wish to
take it, but never let them get
to close, it can be lost in a heart
beat, then it stops.

One day it will be lost, but until
then live it like it needs to be, it
is a must, we only have a limited
time of existence, we only have
one life, use it well for one day we
are life, the next we are dust.

They call me evil, but I am in you,
cocooned till I am released, the
trigger is in you. It just needs that
incident that something, to give
birth to me within you.

I am like a butterfly of darkness,
my wings are spreading releasing
the evil within. I couldn't do these
things with out you, but you are not
alone, everyday I am released to do
the unspeakable.

Some have regret with what was
done, while others soak it up and
use it as a strength within.

Those others do not understand
that I am evil within, for I may
sleep to the grave. But in most I
am in some ways released, and
the black butterfly will once again
spread its wings within.

I need something new
A change of scenery
I need a good change,
and live my dreams in reality
I need new feelings
New body
New concepts
Sometimes I get them
Sometimes I just remember what I already knew
New things rarely happen
And I'm just tired of the same things
I feel like everyday's the same and I'm left to discover on my own
I feel like everything is grey and there's no color to behold
I need something new
And I've waited 16, almost 17 years
My whole life
And the only new thing that has happened is my body and mind
*Which I don't like

I wish I had a life's moments eraser
To erase all the bad moments from others memories
But I would like to keep them in mine
They give me humility
They give me the charm and qualities I have now

I wish I were beautiful
So that I could not be so nervous when I talk to people

I wish I were a better writer
So that I could be famous for it

I wish I were a better vocalist and that I were musically talented
I can sing already I just want to be better

But I'm the exact opposite
I can't erase my bad moments
I'm not beautiful
And I'm an alright writer, I'm just not the best of them
I can sing good, but I'm just not great

*But I wish most of all to be able to have children someday